omg.. this week is so stressing i cant ctach up man.. and i have been really slacking off shaheed is catching me up i cant do this// i have to be up a head.. i know i could do better.. i wan to work harder..

urghh/!!! aaha..
!!!

ok.. this week i forgot wat happen..
ouhk ya baba gave me his laptop so now i can do my own work in this patop and shaheed can use the old one.. then again.. he got his mac.. when his company gave his new laptop im going to take that mac.. muahaha!!! kwangx3..!!

ok.. so im so carzy for those high sneakers.. the orange and dark bluish and black!! mama shaza nak!!

talkd to yana and mint and aisyah for a while.. its was fun it made me happier i less missing spore..it was funny..lol.. but seriously the conversation is like silliness sey.. hua hua hua.. i love that.. mint lg boleh melayan.. mepekz..we rock the convo

then went out wif mama when buy stuff.. the macdonalds.. i love the mcflurry.. yum yum..

talked with mama bot the sstrhd my education the ppl..

balik log in lg.. then talk to peeps..

then uat assigment..

ok.. now im nt myslef as im chewing my shirt..
hua hua hua..

tgn tk btol..
why?
bcoz im eating creal at 716PM..
hehex..
advise: never drink coke cherery coz u might be drunk like me
and eat creal in the morning not at 717PM coz u might b crazy..

woott!!>..
haha

ouhk ya i forgot.. sprinfg is awsme.. wooh oo its like the sun is so out.. and we can like picnic under a tree.. geek dok.. fell free.. srious.. im telling u,... uh maju oik..

im am so tired.. this week is so tired.. it was so busy..

monday:
nothing much happen i think..
cant rememeber..

tuesday:
since ive been here thing like this always happen i have no idea how.. i mean like WTH.. thses girls are so diffrent.. ok A said to B that C told A that B love some guy.. well thetruth is non of them are true.. but then gain all of the sudden D strted to involve in this and she said that this stuff they akways mention her name.. butr then again D was so not involve D was the one who came to search for trouble.. D's bf was so pissed that we(me and her) kept saying stupid.. hmm.. there all strt swearing and all.. omg..

Wednesday:
i sort things out.. i told B to talked to A and they did. Well i dared B to talked to C.. and they did .. i was hhapy.. now its betwwen A and B omg.. the tchr saw the whole wat he call drama but too bad i wont tell the drama as the drama end.. im too lazy to tell the drama.. then again.. everthing when fine

Thursday:
everything when fine i think.. then it was so busy i was so tired then again..

Friday:
science fair .. it was tiring,. it was frwaking and scary.. sort of.. i was tired.. now im all overwhelmed.. im so worn-out.. so this happen school when per normal.. i had to make my ever first speech to the parent.. it was great to be put the hand together for me.. i bet it must be my oarents who did the first clap.. hmm.,.. so the judge juj witout us.. then later with us.. then thungs over we talked.. we had fun.. now im a bit socialized with the kids xpecially the boys well nit really most is with the grade 5 and 4 etc.hasan,walliyullah,omar,saleh and muhannid...thses are grade 4 til 6 kids.. the grade 4 girls are close too.. then we had the bake sale. me and zhara went the whole school advertise lol.. it was fun.,. then did stuff then hasan told me the story: he saw my mom as me so he pushed her and said" move!" my mom turn and he went :0 =.=' typical him.. hahax.. so theses days i cant help it.. somtimz i kept on string and this guy.. i dunno y but seriously its just digusting.. ape tah td lagi i went ti get sumtin he was in the classroom alone so it was between him and me.. i took my stuff and ran off so fast.. i was thinking wats wif me..?wats all this stuff sey?? i bet the sister know more about thses stuff..hua hua hau...oh ya.. didd won the scienc fair but atleast i got to the 2 nd round.. its all about having fun,pleasing Allah and knwing more.. its not bout winning..


man.. i have too much in my mind that i oculd not thinkinn im takin my day off and tomorow im goin to strt workin.. i got government stuff even to do .. hmm... i wish i can gather every single sisterand talk to them..


Missed,,

ever since mama told me that we are goin bak home i kept on thinking of the sisters they kept on playing in my mind.. i cant forget them well xcpt at school as im focusing on my studies.. and cant beleive that they are not here anymore.. wif me caring me for me ..advising me .. tlking to me.. text msging me.. i have been really eager to go bak to spore since then.

people say when somebody is not there wif u then u feel how much speacial or importanat that person was.. i guyz they were rite..

*wipe tears*

these days i cried even more every single day thinking of them .. missing them ..heaaring them ..seeing them.. looking at their picture dosent work ..

evrything strted bcoz of shiham and shazrah .. and the help of the song 'one last' taufik sang..

shiham and shazrah was playing wif the pillow humairah gave me the blue floower one and shazrah was holding the one afiqah gave.. i stared at the pillow humairah gave and burst into tears all of the sudden then now i everytime i hear the song 'one last' it will be the bonus..

i cant wait for the next 3 month anymore.. i can actually feel the misery.. only i can feel it.. no one else can it hurts alot ..painful then a guy dumpin me.. well thts an xmple..

i cant put in words as its too hard how much i love them.. its unxpressable.. words would not shape the feeling as its too hard.. now the only thing im hoping is the flight ticket to spore to go bak home..

the place where i will be wif them..

where they're there wif me.. laughing,having fun,smiling, and enjoying ourselve..and pretending there nuthin wrong..

i had it im so tired of it.. please stop calling me.. everybody needs my help.. im gald to help but if u people asked me overloading helps i had it..!thats only for friends i had it for my family.. let me talked about friends.. ok i ne i alays inish my stuff up but please guy dat doesnt mean tat i know everthing i got the same prblm doing the same stuff too.. haizz..

my family on the other hand.. please i dont wan to fight anymre but sumtimz its you that cause me to start the fight.. Day 1 i only wanted to help thats the least that i can do.. but there no reason for u toraise your voice.. i did nothing. the other one i ws innocent and please stop blaming it on me.. i had nuthin to do wif it and u kept on blaming me.. im growing.. i wan to grow please stop odering me around telling me my limitaions i know wat are my limitation.. i juz wan to get bak to the ordinary life wif my frenz and B i enjoy being in her care.. she knows how to ontrol me or mayb i got that so called freedom.. i have been growing as a teen to b free for 3 yeaars i dun noe my limitation till now. im big i know them but plz stop ordering. i know ure trying to do the best for me but it taes years to know others.

now these is where i wan to hang out only wif either of my sisters. goin out wif them taking fresh airs.. its either wif mai,fi sha and ain.. maybe oly them can bring bak my smile... well i noe the other can too.. but theyre my going out ppl and i really enjoy goin out wif them.. but here i only have my tchr when the other just forget it..

im really looking forwrd to get bak home wif the siters.. and late then mayb i can hang out wif other peepz and enjoy my teen life..


i know this stage of level is hard for us teens bcoz we only wan ppl to hear us wat we have to say not hearing wat pl have to say.. ordering iss listening to ppl and teens hate to listen to pl that y they are bad and cause their life to go to the wrong ay sumtimz u cant blame them but blame others which cause them there. we to wan to stand for our rites.. parent only wan to win with i called stupid xcuses when they call our xuses stupid when they aares so now everybody is equal.. if you ont respect others how are others goin to respect you.. for sum reason i respect my grandma better than my mom..



i doont wan to say anymore that now im xpressless..

seriously i think i had fun.. hahax..im getting the hang of new friends from friendster..hehex.. so friday was professional activity day which means no scholl. then on friday was the conference day.. so y time was at 5 but i came at 3 to help the tchr with science fair and regional science fair.. im so gald my hse is near to school. i had fun.. well i plan on stuff on what to do for the school seriously i cant beleive this.. they dont have tchrs day..!! i was -.-' my mom told me to organize one and i said ok fine.

i was talking well knowing people then on i think sat i was talking to this guy it was so boring.. both him and the situation well he was talkin to his own frenz.. i was waiting for the isters well i guess they were buzy rite.. so i kept on telling him how boring it was.. then mairah came in telling bot fathih..i say man tat guy got attitude but too bad ar he is like a lady had a war wif him guess what girl won.. ok bak to the story i told the guy tat i was freaky boring then he told me to korek hidong i ans back then all of the sudden about 7 ppl IM me i was like then so buzy and told him bye.. wat a ditcher sey shaza hahax.. then talked to the others then i heard bot AY i think stuck in the lift well lucky they survive.. haiz..

nite then i still was online talk to sum other ppl seriously i was laughinf my head off.. it was so funny well for me only but not for the others.. seriously it was freakishly funny..!! hahax..

aisha called me so we talked bot this girl who said that EVERY GUY liked her even shaheed i was like -.-' xcuse me.. then we talked2 talked bot our day bot wa we plan to d to her hahax..ok then..


i kept on saying to mama i want to go bak home as i missed my sisters dearly... seriously i felt lost. i cant even figure my ways. i mis u girls so much.. then all of the sudden i started to miss shira.. hahax tu lg case kelakar..guess wat my mom said." yelar tu kn plan de lepas abiz skula lar."

i answed bak:"huh? abiz graduation time june>?"

mama:" aah lar jgn ckp lg lar"


i was woohoo..!!! i missed mt sisterz..


3 more month!!!


p.s. i think i crushing on sumone..

hmm..


im trying to avoid it now..!!

p.s.s
oii yan biler ko nk online.. i miss u sat morning bot 7 ker 8 online arr..!!