anger.

DAH AH KAU !

RUIN MOOD RAYA SEYH!

TAK KUASE AH NAK LAYAAN.

NAK PMS! PMS SENDIRI AH ORANG LAIN NAK

JEJAS KAN WHAT FOR LA SEYH !

Alaaaamaaak buat sakit hati je lah!

Wishes

HAPPY ONE YEAR OLD DAAY BABES!
May God bless you all and insert smiles and happiness in your life.
Thank You for being there for me when I need you guys.
Thank you for entering my life and creating memories and laughter.
May you live long.
I love your NENEK RUSDA AND JIRAAAN NABILAAH!

MY RED FACE?YOUR RUSH?

I enjoy school alot. After the downs I've been going through, I am glad that I am still on my way to the journey of life.

OKAY! Dang that was weird yet true. :DD
Schooool was awesooome baby! Hafizhah, Bestie and that Apek made my morning which made my day. :DD Oh wait a little credits as well to a person who made me laugh and smile all the way to school(:

Geography test was manageable and I hope I ace it well. Annnd it got better then. I was grinning all the way and laughing as well. Thank You Jiran for making it better for me. Ustaz M woke me super fast with the noise he made that I was totally inlove with. :DD

I got my malay test back and woah disappointment as usually but it was unexpected. I scored better than I thought I would. Talked to Bapak Smile with Farah and Aiin and I realized that BAPAK LIKES TO MAKE THE SAME FACE THAT I DO. :DD So I joined for awhile.

Went home with Syefa, HJN, NBLH, Mash and Mas was there was well. I was randomly texting Syakirin and he was only a few meters away from me. It was funny seeing each others faces and replys. So again We rule.

FARAAAAAH!! KAAAK NABMOOO!!
I feel like giving you guys a big hug.
(BIG HUGGS)

I am missing these babes.

Girls, I'm sorry.

Bangs.

Everyone woke up late and we missed sahur. But yet I still survive. Alhamdullilah.
Woke up and get ready for Queensway. Well there was a little issue going on then with Mom and I wont really elaborate on it.

Somehow it was emotional for Mom. I think she was PMS-ing. I was the only one she turns to and just now she really did had it on. She was pouring on badly that its not her that cried but it was me. I feel bad cause I usually kept blaming her and gives the credit it all to dad. Buuut I was soo wroong.

"Abih your dad always be the shining armor and I'm the bad person."

I am sooo sorry.

NEW HAIR.
First view: OHMYGOD! HOW COME SO SHORT!!
But then I messed it up and try to make it nice annnnnd now the main point is I like my new hair. :DD

I found this!
Kak SyaSya wrote it. Annnnd I have made my decision. (:

D,
I am extremely sorry. Maybe it is my fault and its me to blame.
Buuut I just feeel weird out. Okay fine! its truue maybe I dont know anything much and I shouldnt be saying or commenting about anything. Well maybe bestie will try to explain it all but it might actually be hard for herself and I dont want to trouble it. So lets not get her involve. Fine. I take the blame its my fault for "leaving you guys for something new."

I think I liked it better when you were in the West.

I'm sorry.
Lets just end it.


I am done.

Russsssssh,

I am so tired.
I was out the whole day on friday. And yes, I mean it all day.

In the morning it was raining HEAVILY. Like super WOAH heavy. Caught up with HJN at the mrt station. So we borrowed Rifqi's umberella and walked to school. Annnd I am telling you I blame HJN for the wet shoes. :DD There were so many deep puddles.
Oh yeah, Iylas, HJN and I became Rescue Teams. :DD

School today was a little bit better?
Maybe its because I finally manage to let it out bit by bit. But I give a little credit to Cikgu Iskandar and Classmates for making it even better. Till now, I still put on the smile they taught me. Most of us werent in the mood to study due to the weather and the comfortablenesses with our feet bared and drenched uniform. Cikgu gave us a paper and make us write and our name and pass it around the class. I enjoyed it alot. ((: Thank you Classmates, I adore you guys<33.They have secretly cheered me up without noticing. Oh, our class door go BAMMED by us with hari raya cards and wishes. It might look a little bit messy but its still cute. :DD

Results are in! I am quite disappointed in myself. But Alhamdullilah I still manage to pass and at least get 65%. But for me 65% is still a failing mark. Physics is excatly 65% and Math is about 66% or 68%? Its all a B4. Sigh. I spot so many careless mistakes and yes teacher has the rights to get mad at us for sleeping in class.
Another challenge by God to test my patience?

Went home with Ain and Shifa and haha! Aku salute Nurul Ain Hassan tons tons. :DD While on the way home, I got a call. It was a weird call by my "oh-so-rocking-friends" Aum and Shaikh? Guuuuuuys! What was your motive? I got weirded out there on the phone? It was so sudden? But then again I miss korang budak budak RC.

Got ready for iftar and thanks HJN for waiting for such a long period. Mom last minute-ly told me that I had to go by myself. Well it was awesome going early with HJN. We round the place and help out what we could. Joined HJN for her duty and interact with people. Eh JuniorsJuniors aku semua lawa lawa laaaa! :DD Haha! It was fun going around. Annnnd it got double exciting then. Only HJN knows right? The school looks so vintage and old fashion-ed that I could feel the rush. I am so going to miss that place alot. So I walked around and helped alot. Which made me feel even better. ((:

Me and the TARDYCRAPS; Ruzaini and Dayah, planned to skip tawarih and go waterih sor ICE KACAAAAANG! But I got caught by mom the the prayer field and had to do tarawih. But I didnt regret it.But then Fadil made it sound so fuuun! grr. After tarawih, met nabmo and hafiz! :DD Hafiz reminds HJN and me of Abg Dan and Kak Zub right? Haha! Went back to school and played BUNGE API! WOOT.

Took the train with kak nanabibilalaaah, HJN and dibby. Annnd woah I felt into the deepest nap ever. :DD Later then HJN and myself had a little adventure at Bukit Gombak and end up reaching the mosque at twelve. Thanks alot to the guys for NOT helping us how to get there. We washed our face and doze off at the most perfect spot. At 3, I heard the alarm but end up ignoring it and going back to sleep. :DD I still did my prayers lah! Surprisingly we saw Kak Syafiq. Did Subuh prayer and packed up. I had a rush again and giggled again most of the journey home. Again a deeeeeep sleep.

Me ang HJN stopped by cash converters and saw that thing. I want that thing. Reached home, log in the internet,texting and accidentally slept. Sorry guys I didnt reply your texts. Woke up by dad and got ready for grandny's. The food were yummy and dot. I had more rush and giggles there.Slept in car agaiiiin deeep. XDD

the F1 track didnt impress me. Boohoo.

Is this a new beginning?

tHE EMO POST.

Hi!

Well look? I didnt blog yesterday.
Ohmygod cool!

I swear challenges everywhere. But most challenges arent physically yet emotionally. I hate emo challenges. But its the wonderful month of ramadan so bear with it. Its a month of challenge where God Almighty is testing us. Okay great.

I think I'm sick.
I am no longer ordinary like I was currently. It somehow vanish. dissolve. GONE!
I feel like Ive lost my identity, my personality and most of all I do not know how to react anymore.
Is it the problems that drove me into this?
Even the way I talk; clinging and hanged.

I..

Okay stop.
this is weak. I say weak. I know you don't want to listen to my complains and craps, but hey? its my blog right? My space. So if your not up to it then Good luck with life buddy but if you are congratulations you might have just earn some person's experience.

School is a little kind of different for me.
Well my environment has been a little different.
Day by day test. I am extremely dissapointed with myself. :DD
Today;
The girls were holding this "saham" thing which was kind of hilariously childish but yet entertaining. Result dia tak best sangat la. :DD And I got "the talk" by Ustaz A. Ustaz still nak bapak saya punye no.? I saw bapak smile smile again! But it ended way to fast. Class Raya decoration is up! I love you classiematies.

I dont get the sisters anymore. I just dont.
We rarely even talk. For example hasanah.
We go to school everyday but we dont really talk. We just kept quiet that BOOM! thats it?
These days I understand, you people have your exams and I'm cool with it.
But the other day when aisyah and farah was there, you people talked like as if I wasnt there.
talking about I dont know what and me just there standing invisible and not to mention not inviting into the conversation. Hey! I was lucky enough that hafizhah was there accompanying me.

I remembered a post by D.
About everybody changing. And hey okay I admit as we grow we change? But those this mean it have to be like this? The change is beyond expected. Okay, lets say that the fakers and us were born on the same year. And they have conflicts like us too and some of them got separated into different classes. But in our case, I got seperated from school and Skn got seperated from grade. Yet! I can still see the fakers standing strong. Congrats guys. Is separation between one and another going to stop all this "sisterly love"? Is this the end cause I so do not want to end this. I love you guys way too much that maybe there's hatred?
Another thing D mentioned about jealous? green eyes monster? WHAT ARE YOU JEALOUS ABOUT?
I need bestie, shes the only one who have been there for me lately.
Only she knows whats going on.


to farahnuramalina, nurulainhassan and ezzati;
Aku macam kind of miss you people.

to my NOP hang outs people;
ESPECIALLY TARDCRAP.
I miss you all! Nak ketawe lagi!

to classmates;
thank you for introducing yourselves into my world.

to kakak nanabibilalah;
IFTAR KTE JUMPE EXTRA EARLY AND HANG OUT JOM!
text me. congratz STE is over.

I'm starting to love Irsyad more and more.
Day by Days.

I have friends and I can say loads and loads of them
At the same time I feel as if there are invisible and they arent real.

I feel lonely.
I feel weak.
I feel abandon.
I feel friendless.

They are there.
But wait where are they?

STOP IT LAH SHAZAA APPRECIATE ON WHAT YOU HAVE NOW!

Screeen capture.

AFY or AYM?
I still do not know which one.

School was normal.
I slept alot and at the same time my brain was absorbing fast!
Thank you brain.


kakak nana bibi lalaaaaah;
it was nice chattting with you!
JOM JUMPEE!!

Ruzaaaainiii owe me an ice kacaaang.
(:

Thank you maya for teaching me.
(:

F1 is on track.

Nenek Rusda! Nenek Rusda!
Mama got this bag for chaja. nice right nice right? :DD

kurang ajar seyh shazaa!
Sorry nenek!

I got a new backpack! Credits to Amal for telling Rusda(via her tag) about finding this backpack at Check's. Wander around with Mom and got it. Yay!

I LOST MY PHONE'S EARPIECES!

It cost what? 30 bucks isit?
I plan on saving it for a headphones
and now what look what happen.
Alamak!
Well Maybe its a signal by Allah s.w.t telling
Shazaa to stop listening to music most of the time?

Sigh!
Today I cut school. I couldnt woke up today, almost all family members tried to woke me up but they failed. I ended up telling mom I cant go to school. So I woke up super late. Dang was I mega tired. So I rot home, watched tv, log in the internet and met a new RYC friend? Putra bobal macam nak cari gadoh. Annnnnd I actually revised my geography.

PEOPLE I AM BACK ON TRACK! I am no more lazy! I am up to study. DO NOT RUIN MY MOOD!

Accompanied Dad and Grandad for therapy again. I saw improvements. ((: Later on Dad decided to fetch the little ones from school. It was a little embarrassing for me yet then. Saw some of the juniors and seniors. The 6J saw me and I got a 10 second lecture by Nisa' and a 5second lecture by Shalyza. Talked to the guys and again lectures by them? Ruzaini tak supporting ah. Macam la kau tak pernah ponteng. TARDCRAP gini macam eh? And Off to Causewaypoint with Mom!
Bazaar shopping and bought kecoh-kecoh raya.

I guess the decision was made. Ah, no need to dwell on that now. It's not your fault that we're your old friends and that you don't see us everyday in school unlike the people you chose to hang out with and not taking that opportunity to be with us. It's not your fault, at all. We have some faults in this too (though I can't think of one). :)

Is this some sort of sarcasm? I feel like as if it is. I'm sorry I didt choose to hang out with you guys anymore. Its not that I dont want to but its because I dont feel like a part of you anymore. I dont get what you guys are talking about. You make me feel like a freaking pole right there and you all are now minding each of your every business by yourself. The underline part; I did! I actually did. But I just end up sitting there staring at each of you people stone-ly. Somehow only Bestfriend gets it. I dont know what else to say. But I think I'm being treated invisibly crap by you people. Maybe I got it all the wrong way or this offended you people in anyway but Thank you for ALWAYS being there for me. (:

Have I said it all?
Nope.

OK OK!

REQUESTED BY CEK SHAZAAA!

AKU KENER CITER AH APER YG AKU..

KENER PRANK!!!

GERAAAAM BEB!!!

.....

DA PUAS SHAZAA!

SUKER KO EHK...

YELAAH AKU DIPERMALUKN...

HAHA!

TAKPER...

OKOK

BUBYE KORG...

JGN KETAWER!!!

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Okay do you think my lingo of talking has change?
Yes or No?
State you reasons please.

Night of Power lah!

One word: Superb!
One thing is that I am too tired to post it up. But I'm up for it.

Well I was basically rotting in the morning logging in and out three times and finally decided to get ready. So I saw Mas and met Kak Dayah, Kak atiqah and Shefa. Later on join the AYM senior dudes and waited for mr lembab name faisal. While waiting, Kak Dayah nudged me about something. I swear TOTAL EMBARRASSMENT! (KILLS) Thank you Shefa for helping me out. On the way, the girls were being kisau and high somehow. We all got pretty excited then.

Reached Sultan and saw kak SyaSya at the registration booth. I DONT KNOW WHICH YOUTH I AM ANYMORE LA! First it was between aljunied and irsyad, NOW ITS BETWEEN ASSYAFAAH AND AL FALAH?! Me and KakSyaSya even argue a teeny bit infront of ustaz yousef(?) right kaksyasya. Now, merajuk semacam isit? :DD Shazaa is a pure born pembelot?

We were then assigned to our duties. Haha! For duties I joined Assyafaah and we made this human chain and pass on food and later on we secretly ran off to watch upin and ipin and off to the rooftop. SULTAN'S ROOFTOP RULES! The guys were already there and everyone of us were pure kiasu. typical singaporeans true? We took pictures here and there while the girls ran off downstairs. Too bad for us it was full house. We couldnt find a place for ourselves. So Kak dayah, Kak atiqah, Kak fyka(?), Maria, Farhanah(!!!), Shefa and I went off wondering finding food for ourselves. We later then settle down in a place indescribable. Free show much?

Complained. The rest went "tawarih" without inviting me seyh! Korang hilang ke mane ah?! Alamaaaak. But then I get to have a a full hour bonding time with bestie alone at night. It was kind of cool. And off to auditorium.

Akid got punk'd! AND DO YOU KNOW HOW SWEET IT WAS. I sure had a blast seeing his reaction and laughing at him. Akid, You've got punk'd. CPR or Cakap Pasal Remaja was awesome. It was a better version of muhasabah diri. The drama and the host were effective but to bad I couldnt cry. The gang had to prepare the food again, this time it was much more fun. SEMUA KANCHONG! Annnnd I accidentally spilled some punch on top of shefa's tudong. :DD HAHA!

(and this point of moment I am tired already to brag about NOP)
Well there was this video call siksaan kubur. Watched already so I ran outside and hangout with them. Rooftop again! It was hilarious then. I practically cannot sleep in the room prepared so the guys text if we wanted to join them for 7-11. But too bad, all gates were closed so we just chilled outside. A kakak approached us and asked us few questions but thanks to her we got a better room with bigger space and cooler air-con. We got the third floor auditorium! :DD
Peaceful sleep. Woke up with a face. :DD

We ate for sahur and the rest did their prayers while me, bestie and shefa went for a shower and chilled at the auditorium. Closing ceremony and there was a prize giving? Assyafaah won for best initiative. Well most youth laughed at the award. :DD Annnnd there was a picture taking session and I got stuck again? Kak SyaSya gave a look lagi la !! Walaaau pressure. :DD Confused much. Later on the youths talked and bond and ustaz told us about this raya jalanjalan and all. Annnnnd we went off. That abang james bond rule a little bit? And I told your mom already you love her. :D

We waited for the guys to clean themselves up while we sat outside again at our favorite spot. Kita gossip la seyh! (annnd I am to lazy to elaborate) We walkedwalkedwalked around and took sp many pictures and dropped. First we planned to hang out at the esplanade but it was a changed of plan since most of us were tired. Some slept and the rest talked.
Thats it?

Ashraf,
thanks for taking the camera away from me.
or else there wont be any pictures.

Ruzaini lost his phone!
Yes he did! At first, we thought it was a prank since he was the only tardcrap who havet got pranked by anyone that particular day.
But it turn our to be a reality. It was for real.
Sorry dude about it.

And yeah!
Both tardycrap me and dayah got punk'd by our own members. Dayah pranked me while Ruzaini pranked her. And I am still thinking of a way to prank ruzaini? Amacam okay tak? :DD

Sisters,
Sorry I didnt hang out with you people,
Okay fine. Maybe you people have the right to call me action.
I hate decisions.

To you guys who I spend time with during NOP,
THANK YOU FOR THE AWESOME TWO DAYS.
hoping for another meet.
((:


A funny story as I got home

Shadi: Kakak Shazaaa! Tengok kan ni ape?
Me: Tengok ape?
Shadi: Ni yang kat badan shadi? Shark fins eh?
Me: hahahaha!
Mom: hahahaha! Sooo Cuteee.
Shadi:(runs)

Ruzaini, I want the rooftop pictures from your cameraaaaa.
thank you.