Till when will you blame people
and more people to be blamed?
You do know you have a backbone of your own,
a mind of your own
and a heart of your own.
It was your mistake, all mistake are meant
to be known one day.
Thursday, February 23, 2012
A experience.
Another fast week.
It's the fourth day of the week already.
On the second day, I received a cute little envelope with a packet of hacks in it and a thank you letter. The little girl from khutbah gave me and Sharifah a cute note. Really made my day. Couldnt help it but to smile to myself. #inspiration.
The day before today,
the class finally organized a heart to heart talk. I had my says and received few says. I admit what my classmates said were true. They were right and I love them for speaking out. They're the awesomest when it comes to the truth. After all, I spent most of my 365 days with them right? They know me. I thank them for their guts and their unsatisfactory cause not everyone can do so. And Thank you Hasanah too for making me take a step forward to change myself. Everyone need to change for the better right?
"People say people change but they never realized that they're the one who changed"
Right after the session, I received a heart breaking news.
Innalillah. That very same night, together with Hasanah, Qanita, Marhamah, Shifa, Fa and her mother, we paid her a visit. She was a strong girl. We read our Yasin for her father and we talked to her to comfort her and make her feel better. Paid her another visit today. She was delighted to see all her friends coming down to pass their condolence to her family. Insyallah, you will be alright Aqilah.
Monday, February 20, 2012
in love with the bouquet of flowers!
Time to turn a new page.
I was determined to make my day better than yesterday and make school even better than it usual is but it turns out to be more than I expected. Right after Qiyam, I've been receiving alot of smiles and hi that made my day. The Juniors. One by one approached me with a huge smile and made my day a whole lot brighter. :D
When it was khutbah with the secondary one and two, it was a smooth sailing bon voyage kinda cruise for me. The kids greeted me with full of sincerity and enthusiasm. As I did my job, phototaking, they were much more open than before. Alhamdulillah. But its kinda sad that its the second last khutbah.
I even managed to assist a girl who had stage fright. Pass her some of my confidence and ensure her that I won't be going anywhere and I'll always be by her side. Sharifah Sakinah was with her too. The crowd was a good crowd. Together we calmed her down as she gripped my hand hard. She slowly pushed herself through the entire speech. I was there to witness her determination and how she was pushing her limits. She was fighting her fear and was really brave about it. That taught me a lesson.
I was smiling all the way then, I had to reasons to be upset anymore.
The world is full of colors, why not admire them.
Sunday, February 19, 2012
the agenda of three things
one: Back from Qiyam Lil Banat 2012. The first qiyam for the sec one and three. I love the team for their non stop steady-ness and pushing it all out to make it all happen. I admit, it wasnt the best qiyam, a qiyam where they kids will remember it all but I had fun. Getting to know the little girls and getting to know the team. The small talks and tiny advices. I'll say hi if I see them. :)
Thank you kids for making it happen. And Awesome Job Girls! :D
two: I have always admire looking at paintings and drawings. Every artist is unique in his/ her own way. The way they portrait themselves, the nature, the society and even their feelings. I do wish to have those magic fingers and amazing graceful hands. I do wish I can draw my emotions out and share it with the world.
three: Met the feb birthday girls. The Humairahs. Mai had to go back to KL already and some of us decided to hang out and chill for a while and so we did. Together with Farah and Ain, we accompanied Mai for her lunch at MCD and did some 411 (according to farah) on one another. It a sweet and simple. Maya came late and joined us afterwards. Boy was she glad to be hanging out at woodlands. *wriggle eyebrow*
At six, things got nasty and tough.
One of the worse. By ten, i was feeling sick.
At eleven, you're trying to make it feel better.
Monday, February 13, 2012
jailbroken.
Happy 15th Birthday Hannah!
This year that I got much closer to this little girl. The innocent little girl is no longer innocent. Cheeky and Sneaky indeed.
Hasanah, Shifa together with her spent her birthday morning excersing by the park, breakfast at MCD and prank calling. A spalsh of water with few sprinkles of powder made her happy. :D I hope you enjoy that little something.
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It's gettin hard on me. that I'm confuse in your words that slowly turn into reaction and actions. You used to save me from this quicksand of confusion but right now....
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Saturday, February 11, 2012
surprises.
Finally! The PREUTWO moment we've been waiting for.
Talaqqi bisannad. It was an up and down period for me. Hasanah even made an epic meme about it. It was no words for me but I guess the meme faces really did a great job expressing my inner feelings. Yay Memes!
Someone is getting braver each day huh? First the note next the goodnight mention and afterwards the casual conversation that you asked around where I was. We had a large crowd looking at us around. You even made a risky call while an event is being held. tsk tsk. ^^
Wednesday, February 8, 2012
beat pumping
They finally did it! Gradutated Primary school, Secondary school and Pre University! :D
We got one kakak who is already in Uni while the rest are part time teachers, working girls and enjoying girls. ^^ Left with three of us who are still trying to follow their lead and Insyallah, be with them once again next year. Amin.
Congratulation Babygirls! <3
The day after their Convocation we met once again for a mini photo shoot and one last gathering before most of us part our ways to further our studies. Botanical Garden by the Lake. I got zilch skills but tried my best to take memorable photos for them. It was tough with the short period of time that we had. Shot til we drop.
Goofing around with the robes like its ours to own.
Soon it was dawn and maghrib arrived. We gathered in circle and talk like we usually do. The girls talk, the surprising updates. The catch ups. I loved the vibe and the love in the air as the stars and the moon witnessed our sisterhood love blossoms. I know I'm gonna miss them.
It wasn't our time yet. While some of us felt it was wrong, I took it as a motivation.
A motivation to not give up and push my way through. To visualize what I aimed for and what I shall achieve and Insyallah, with the doa and barakah, we will achieve.
Amin.
Monday, February 6, 2012
fail webcam
No School Today!
Mama delightful ground me so I wont leave the house and tire myself again and again and again. Well, it was her plan and decision right? Woke up at Noon, slacked till afternoon and WHOOPA! I'M CHILLED AND RELAX.
The internet and tv ain't working. Mr 3G's being superb h e r o i c.
So Dreamyyyy. :B
Currently: Trying to calm myself down & wait.
Waiting for the grad photoshoot pictures.
Sunday, February 5, 2012
They have finally graduated.
It was such a beautiful event from start till the end.
I was very happy for each and every batchmates of mine. We've watched each other grew and now all of them are extraordinary. Some of us are teachers in school, teachers in kindergartens, tutors for secondary and primary students. Some day, they will be travelling around the world whereas some will stay here and spread the beautiful kalimah of Islam insyallah.
"Don't worry Shazaa, next year will be your year. Get their barakah"
A famous statement I received from teachers, friends and mothers. It was suppose to be my year. As one by one raise to the stage, I was at the back of the room. Looking around the hall. I looked my fellow ITMAJ peers, I looked at my asatizahs, I looked at Mateen. "This was suppose to be my year."
But when I looked back, if this year was my graduating year, I would miss alot of experience and the time of my life. I would miss out going to Canada, I would miss going to Irsyad, I would miss knowing Kak Nisa and the Netbolalers, I would miss Bahas 4PM, I would miss getting to know people, I would miss out the Gratis Trip, I would the experience as an ITMAJ student all because I graduate this year.
If I would to graduate this year,
I wouldnt be Who I am Today.
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