this should be a bright one posting

I don't want to be like any other anyone from where I came from.
At the same time, I don't want to be lost. I want to know who I am. I want to stand firm with who I am and stay solid with my own principles and stand. At least I look strong, prim and proper. At the outside at least.

But as for now,
I think I know who I am.

What's going on? What am I missing?

again, another soul searching problem.
a missing soul, missing identity or maybe a wannabe?



Why can't I just be grateful and
slowly pick up and start from there?

Travel list!

I've always wanted to see the world so I did a little homework about it.
Here are the places I would love to do.

1. Check out the clear water and play with the currents at The Phi Phi Island, Thailand.

2. Enjoy a nice camel ride around Petra, Jordan

3. Check out the sunset around Santorini, Greece

I'll update more and list up more places to go! :D

welcome home

Eid Mubarak everybody!

My Eid was simple. There was food, laughters, old folk stories and just love. Shaheed had to go back to camp that night and it was nice. The day ended with everybody exchanging hugs and comparing laughter during the dinner. :)

But mama popped in a question, "Shazaa, where did you get your mentel trait from?" haha. Bee Bam! Bonus question. But she wasn't the first to ask me that. That question has been lingering in my mind since. It seems rather petty isn't it? It won't affect the whole nation nor would it change my life. Will it? Somehow, deep down, it's a huge question for me. An answer I desperately want to know.


Moving on!
I'm almost there with my school work. I'm left with some arabic reading (which I terrible dread doing it) and a script to memorize. I'm anticipating for school, more events to happen and more people to know. But I have to keep reminding myself.. "patience is a type of courage"


Hang in there Shazaa,


keep in checkin'
S.

7D

It's mid term break! 

I didn't know that it was gonna be fast. :D But well like any other typical schools, they won't let us chill. But I'm grateful I only have 3 assignments and a mid term this break, Mai got 9 assignments in line for her. You can spelled out crazy out loud now. 

The week before the break was too pronto! My roommates got worried seeing how exhausted I am. I guess I'm one of those lucky ones being blessed with awesome and caring room mates. Always there to cheer me up, enlighten my spirit and make sure I am always well during my days. Although I'm a big bully, they never fail to laugh with me, at me and along with me. My top ups for positive vibes. At the same time, I learn something about myself. I am indeed workaholic. haha! It's just that if I'm in my momentum, I'm all out for it. Sincerity, passion and perseverance is there. 

Well then again, Eid is coming! :D 

keep on checkin'

S. 

a detour to learn

It's human nature to be negative but it's also human nature to remain positive. It's just a matter of choice.  I'm bummed and tired right now. I haven't been getting enough sleep and always trying to steal naps during lunch.

But all I'm going to say is, Alhamdulillah.

Alhamdulillah to let all the positive vibes through out my body. Take a nice nap and some smoothing therapy. I shouldn't be giving up and stay strong and keep going. So here's my lesson learnt:

1. DO NOT Procrastinate.
2. Read with sincerity and ask if you don't understand. You got awesome seniors around you girl!
3. Never underestimate and judge your peers cause they are wonderful in their own way.

University life is starting to catch up. I'm still learning this and that but it's going good.
Apart from that.. I got myself a role as a minor poet in a theatre act called Regime! So we've been breathing with our tummy instead of our shoulder. haha. :D So there you go mama baba, I'm slowly exploring the University instead of chilling at HS! (a place where you can find any Singaporeans students you want)

October the first.

Inhaling and Exhaling is needed here today for me. A new beginning for a new month! :D 

1. Idlan was nice enough to invite me to try out for Regime, a poetry play happening on the 26 of Nov. I had no intention to try out any role but decided to give it a go. To challenge myself. Pulled Ilya and Ayu to it as well and we did it! :D As we enter the room, our head was zoned out. My practice was worthless. Haha. It wasn't that bad. I was too absorb with Idlan's stories to focus for my audition so I think my audition was rather chilled as I spent my time talking to the director and stage manager more than focus on the thing. 

Afterwards, we spent two hours going through Idlan's brilliant stories and mind and start talking about our passion for real creative stories. I can never be anywhere close to his ideas or Ilya's. 

2. Aida Azlin replied my fb msg! 

Here's the part where I should be fan girling. 

I've always love the work of the114. I found her blog and started reading slowly. Her words are beautiful and inspiring. It's like I see a new angle of life, a new perspective of Islam. Something so simple and sweet. I've never felt so connected to anyone before and I think I found myself another role model, a mentor, a big sister. 

Still star strucked. 

to end september

Murtad: Menuju Tuhan.
A story about 3 different individuals in search for the strength of iman by their very own problem. Was leaving the religion the solution to all the problems? Where are all the muslims when other muslims are in need? Are we the reason for the misinterpretation of our own religion?

It's a Charity Theatre by the Aikolians to gather some money for 2 orphanage in conjunction to their fest this week. The story was simple, predictable but it was splendid! The crew really pulled it off making the whole show smooth and entertaining.

Congratulations Crew members and Theatre casts!
You did a great job. :D

This is me

I happen to be one of those madrasah students who spent her days (in facts years) in the most secure environment to develop and become a better Muslim for the society. I took it for granted. I'm ngelecting my duty and wish for something that I don't have when I should be grateful for what I have. 

 "be grateful and Allah will give you more" 

 If I'm blurry I should wear glasses and if I'm lost I should ask for direction. 
Neither am I doing anything. I'm not here to whin what a terrible Muslim I am but this is gonna be a prove that I will change for the better. I've been soul searching for quite a period of time but the same answer to my quest will always remain the same. I didn't want to accept it.  

 Today, I've seen the beauty.  

Oh Allah, I'm weak cause I'm your servant. Guide me ila siratul mustaqim and protect me along my journey to find my soul. Amin.