weekend

Was the weekend a mistake?
Are all of these regrets that I knew from the start?
Was everyone else right that this, was a troublemaker from the beginning.

Neither is my heart nor my mind is at ease.
Ever steps matters and every feeling reacts faster than its normal speed.
Everything comes and go. too fast.

Nights,
They make you think. They make you overthink.
All I want is some sleep, please don't make me force myself to bed again by laughing.
Cause it's an agony I can't..



handle.


lots of love,
S.

Nature rewards.

Cause it's blog time! :D

Last week, on the 13th right after my finals we went on a road trip! AHHHHHH! :D Syafiq was kind enough to be a daddy and drove us to Cameron Highlands, Pahang. Brothers and Sisters, EMBRACE THE AWESOMENESS OF NATURE! Masyallah! Subhanallah and Allahuakbar! 

IT WAS THE PRETTIEST PLACE TO PLAY OMBAK RINDU REWIND! 

They got a nice view to play tea party, a breezy weather to pretend you're in Switzerland or New Zealand and you can do all sorts of distressing activities there. You name it! I did strawberry plucking, picking? Then I check out butterflies and eek-ed on inserts and frogs, I screamed using my diaphragm on a mountain. (ooooooh~) Dance alone at an open space, laughed at and with my friends and had a mini roller coaster ride. It was a mini innocent party for this clan! It was a pity that we had to rely on phone cameras and only to phone cams. AWWWW! 

Alhamdulillah for the opportunity. So here you go.. PICTURES! :D 

lots of love, 

S. 

Jinnyboy tv.

I know it's sappy and cheesy, but hey you need cheesy and sappy in life to be thrilled and exciting.

Hahaha. Self Theory: Fail. :D

Watching Conversation over Coffee makes me feel all softy inside cause it feel so close to dreaming.
Being in a cafe, hoping something to happen.

hopelessly anticipating.

lots of love,

S.

"Toffee is Coffee with a T"

An official week of 2014. 

Welcome new year. 

I just had an amazing lunch with some of my awesome bunch. It has been nearly a month since I last see them. There wasn't much of catching up but more of appreciation of each other's existence. I love that the fact that all of us are different in our own way but yet we compliment each other. 

Meet the Regime people. 

Here's the story of us: 

All of us were what they call fresh meat or greenies for theatre, but we had good chemistry and bond with each other. Even our seniors were shocked to see "No Drama" during the whole training. Slowly, we developed a strong bond and got to know each other and slowly have each other's back. Our dinners and lunch were always filled with good and happy times and when someone is sad, we'll do something to work it out. Whatever it is, when I'm with them I feel so.. real. So Me. 

but maybe we're still new, still in the process of knowing each other. 

I hope for a good future with these companies Insyallah. I'll still pray for them no matter what cause they've helped me (alot) during my stay here.

Coming up next:
A trip to Cameron Highs Insyallah. :D

Lots of love,
S. 

slight effort is better than no effort.

Alhamdulillah, I'm grateful that I have roommates who  have been very supporting and motivating in so many ways. They will ensure my rough and lonely time here is colored with joy, care and mutual concern and love. We are all away from our families, stranded in a new environment still struggling, still coping and still finding. 

I thought my first few months will be tough but with finals around, it got tougher. 

I am merely giving up. 

But I choose not to. Cause giving up is a sign of weakness and I will not admit defeat and weak. This place had done enough trashing my confidence and making me lose my touch of who I am or who I thought I was. It has done good in new realization but I struggle. It's okay, I know I'll be appreciative of this institution and send my gratitude for teaching me hardship and struggle. 

As for now, all I can do is remain positive and held my head high up. 

Learn from mistake, work on it and don't repeat it. 

Or else, fool on you Shazaa. 

lots of love, 

S.