tHE EMO POST.

Hi!

Well look? I didnt blog yesterday.
Ohmygod cool!

I swear challenges everywhere. But most challenges arent physically yet emotionally. I hate emo challenges. But its the wonderful month of ramadan so bear with it. Its a month of challenge where God Almighty is testing us. Okay great.

I think I'm sick.
I am no longer ordinary like I was currently. It somehow vanish. dissolve. GONE!
I feel like Ive lost my identity, my personality and most of all I do not know how to react anymore.
Is it the problems that drove me into this?
Even the way I talk; clinging and hanged.

I..

Okay stop.
this is weak. I say weak. I know you don't want to listen to my complains and craps, but hey? its my blog right? My space. So if your not up to it then Good luck with life buddy but if you are congratulations you might have just earn some person's experience.

School is a little kind of different for me.
Well my environment has been a little different.
Day by day test. I am extremely dissapointed with myself. :DD
Today;
The girls were holding this "saham" thing which was kind of hilariously childish but yet entertaining. Result dia tak best sangat la. :DD And I got "the talk" by Ustaz A. Ustaz still nak bapak saya punye no.? I saw bapak smile smile again! But it ended way to fast. Class Raya decoration is up! I love you classiematies.

I dont get the sisters anymore. I just dont.
We rarely even talk. For example hasanah.
We go to school everyday but we dont really talk. We just kept quiet that BOOM! thats it?
These days I understand, you people have your exams and I'm cool with it.
But the other day when aisyah and farah was there, you people talked like as if I wasnt there.
talking about I dont know what and me just there standing invisible and not to mention not inviting into the conversation. Hey! I was lucky enough that hafizhah was there accompanying me.

I remembered a post by D.
About everybody changing. And hey okay I admit as we grow we change? But those this mean it have to be like this? The change is beyond expected. Okay, lets say that the fakers and us were born on the same year. And they have conflicts like us too and some of them got separated into different classes. But in our case, I got seperated from school and Skn got seperated from grade. Yet! I can still see the fakers standing strong. Congrats guys. Is separation between one and another going to stop all this "sisterly love"? Is this the end cause I so do not want to end this. I love you guys way too much that maybe there's hatred?
Another thing D mentioned about jealous? green eyes monster? WHAT ARE YOU JEALOUS ABOUT?
I need bestie, shes the only one who have been there for me lately.
Only she knows whats going on.


to farahnuramalina, nurulainhassan and ezzati;
Aku macam kind of miss you people.

to my NOP hang outs people;
ESPECIALLY TARDCRAP.
I miss you all! Nak ketawe lagi!

to classmates;
thank you for introducing yourselves into my world.

to kakak nanabibilalah;
IFTAR KTE JUMPE EXTRA EARLY AND HANG OUT JOM!
text me. congratz STE is over.

I'm starting to love Irsyad more and more.
Day by Days.

I have friends and I can say loads and loads of them
At the same time I feel as if there are invisible and they arent real.

I feel lonely.
I feel weak.
I feel abandon.
I feel friendless.

They are there.
But wait where are they?

STOP IT LAH SHAZAA APPRECIATE ON WHAT YOU HAVE NOW!