Dizzy with Frizzy.

Good Night?

I dont know whats going on with me currently now. I feel mad, gothic, depress, stress, lose focus and everything else. I'm mad at myself cause I've high dreams to excel well. I've plan myself here and there and I'm sure that I will do it and is determine to do so. But I was wrong! I lose focus and I'm not motivated enough to do so. I end up wasting my time here. THIS IS STUPID I KNOW I NEED TO WAKE UP! I have a future to think about. STE is next year not to mention my O's the next two years. LIKE FISH! You're not in secondary one anymore where you can jolly around! I couldnt take it anymore even Melly the twin cant make me smile. And you did a bad job you! After my prayers I felt a little better but then it came back. Thanks Mat lily for your uhh? wisdom?
If I died, well dont be surprise.

School was great today I enjoyed it alot. I was well focus during Tauhid, Math and Chemistry. I was motivated then to do my revision. During Faraid, I was so ecstatic to study the first few minutes but then I realized that I dozed off for the whole entire two period with my head on the table giving this image that I was dead. Sorry Ustaz M. First recess was a little bit emotional for Ustazah S and maybe few of us. It was a little bit hurtful to see her tear up infront of us.

Thank you Geography remedial for the awesome time. S3itqan are sure lucky to have Mr M as a form teacher. The whole class was too fun and understandable. Poor Kelantan takde dam isit? The whole class sure had fun talking about Chapter Eight. Nazia was being random an randomer. What I know then we were talking about bubble tea and what we were going to have for buka. :DD

Met Kak Nisa after class with the rest and saw man and dollah walking out. Well seriously, teasing man was always a hit. :DD On the way to the station, HJN made me laugh when she noticed something. I couldnt stop laughing. The whole journey home was quite exciting as we were talking about irsyadians and ex-aljuniedians who transferred to Irsyad. People like adik right hjn? :DD

I told HJN something unexpected but seriously woah. It hit me suddenly. Sigh.

To you my friend:
I swear you are just pathetic enough. I dont get you but I just tried to stay along by the side helping you out cause I know its the most I could do. But seriously treat me with respect cause I'm not some useless standing thing. I might think as myself useless but only I could think that way and nobody else. :DD Dont get all into love cause its only temporary.

Good Night.