well, in the morning, i tried to avoid her. somehow the more i avoid her, the more thingys ahppen. the better things happen. today was quite rawking fun, hilarious much, xpecially during eng class last period. the class was OUT OF CONTROL! and it was the worst of the time. it was like a nightmare for the tchrs. make it short. i dont want to alk much.
okay incident,

me:" sister, i have to go to the washroom badly"
SUB:" no u can go!"
me:" but i cant hold it anymore.do u wan me to die"
SUB:"yes."

SHOCKED! everyone hates her. pfft.even the good students. BLEEEH. no homework tonight. so preety relaxing and chilling. i strt randomly add ppl bcos asha was super boring! then talked to sharif. weird ass dude. and anoosh and maii. i miss that little person.
then like that2

gaaawd, im tired talking about you.
and the other you!. WTH is wrong with you.
CRAAP!






this week is the bad hijab week.

OKAAAY. i hate you. and im staying away from you. maybe he is right. you are a bad influence.
i have a bad day. today is stupid. YES. wtvr. thanks syimir for helping me out and hearing everything. and zahra for jus being there and making me smile.

syimir says: can you like smile alittle syimir says: think positive... be jolly happy... youre comin back to singapore soon.. dun think so much abt ur problem syimir says: and think abt whatever you wanna say, do, etc. with ur girlfriends back in singapore... its in afew weeks time.. 09. rocking live. says: thanks syimir i feel much better than/ syimir says: you shld be jumping for joy not upset right..



'i miss the sisters.
i wan the hug from mai,
the pat from skin
a rub at the back frm hasanah.
and the company of ain.

i want u guys badly.
;[[

talked to ain,haris,maya and farah(amalina) yesterday night. ain, boring ar bobal gan ko. ;P haris, pegi training ker tk?u and ur skateboarding je eh. tsk3 maya: why r u asking asal tk tdo lg?XP and pemalas ar ko. FARAAAH: sorry tk bobal sgt. stomach ache. ;D
thenn agaaiin. YOU PPL RULES.

well the schedule got changed again. i told my story and the tchr said " wow a wonderful story" well technically not good enough for me. RAWWR. well im hunger for great marks okay.i cant help it.then the whole day was so surprisingly random. its like POP GOES THE RANDOM. funny tho. lunch had debate meeting. and these grade 11 girls specifically huda and juwayriyah, we like chasing me around the class. first juwayriyah kept saying "awww, look at you. your so cute". its not funny. it was creepy. scaaaaaaary.thenn huda wanted to comfort me so she goes to me and hugs me and all of the sudden was like " mmm, you smell niice. Come here" THATS EVEN SCARIER. and she kept telling ppl to smell me. WTHECKS why are u smelling me.there were like all over me. but i still love them.gym was free-you-can-do-anything. shot some baaskets. goal some nets and the reast of the girls strt dancing. omg i can go blind. this is no ordinary dances.these were blind dances. asha was on the stage jus sitting and lying to joined her and then we went upstairs and took our french books while we heard this 2 tchrs talking about birds. riights.then studied.
THE FRENCH TCHR RAWK TODAY! he was so random and funny all of the sudden. (hint: 9 ppl gone cos the guys went to watch basket ball while one got home early and the others were absent.) the class were all rawking. the girls ruled the class. then my hyperness got built up cos of him and asha too. i was like HAHAHAHAHAH most of the time. walked home with ibraheem,emran,aisyah and lil brother. emran is akwrd and sory ibraheem i didnt talk to you but thanks for accompanying lil brother. did homework,eat.(i wan more food)thast it.


muhim thanks alot.
im using alot of "physical warfare" these days.
i jus love the word(s) ;]]

the pic say it all.

the whole morning i chatted with few peoples. then yan got her wacked on and maya just increased my lets say motility to shop for clothes. gawwd. later than yan told me bot the japan vid/episode cos i was bored so i go for it. well i nvr regret it. watched it like for the whole day. i didn't even bathed until magrib. shut up. i cant help it. plus its shifa' fault too. she kept pushing me to watch each episode. so far finished about 8 episode. but i skipped till episode 12. siince yan was done watching it so she was like:
"the last part remind me of the sisters ar"
ans this question, did u like try to cry?

it was so sad.
touched. okay DIAM.
the hilarious thiing was while i was watching a classmate was so shocked that i was wtching it. why cos i use to dissed it so much. He was like "your watching it?! big surprise" GOD, shut up.
didn't had the much mood.oh while watching it. talked to braem.

conclusion:
weird. i dont get it. and he dosen't get it. :]]

dad left for montreal. snow storm is over i guess. and he called home after few min gone.
he talked to me about my schooling. yes MY FUTURE SINGAPORE SCHOOL.
well everyone knew basically its ALJUNIED OR IRSYAD.

you guys have no idea how tough it is. how im stressing with this decision. my plan was to take exams for aljunied if i tk dpt then irsyad it is. but i dont think this is going to work. neither does my parents and even you guys knew that. its hard im telling you. HARD. its like maybe O'level math hard. both school wants the results as fast as possible. irsyad wants the decision before school closes and im late already. plus i dont want to miss the most looking forward days. ive always loved aljunied sports days AND next year is the intermadrasah. andn i want to represent as an aljuniedian. im sorry that i'll be disappointing you sisters. but i dont want to waste my time and nvr dream to be in sec2 2008. but ill be an irsyadian. yes. iryadian. ;[[ hey but its not going to be bad riight. rusda,malsa,farah,shira(yes my cousin),azie and some other ppl will be there riight with me. i know u sisters are dissapointed but hey come on smile for me. we'll hang out together. i might visit aljunied and i might actually balik tampines with the east folks. you guys wait for me at school then we balik sesame. or u ppl dtg irsyad. i guess ill be kat irsyad for 2 yrs or 1 yr. dad advise that i should take my STE kat irsyad. then in the morning, ill still naek mrt with hasanah and aisyah, and maybe ill go meet ain. then when u guys have netball practice i could come and visit and see u all play riight?

hey, im not happy or satisfied with my decision.
i miss all the aljunidians. i miss (kaks)ishmah,falah,mus,dila,seri,aizah,pija ad all those other netball kaks and nons.
but i guess its the best for me.
cheer me up darling sisters. be happy. smile for me.
no worries, we'll still hang out maybe every sat.or go to ppls hse.
we're always be together and stick together.
ILYalldearly.
:]

it the morning talk to few people,like wonderful rusda. then mama told me to get off and prepared breakfast. but then while waiting for the prata (yes, prata) so when online talked to boring muhaimin, grouchy maya, awesome haris and caring syimir. while i did something else. i helped maya out and all. and she jus made me want to shop for more clothes and jeans. DAMN. im growing up. i cant believe i cant wait to go shopping. well its more like hanging out with gfs. i really wanted to help maya, as she was so down but i had to get ready so sorry hun. got ready,and left. and woooah. it was at 11 sumtin and the interchange were dead. no body was there xcpt for few. shaheed hold a door for a lady and got 3 chocolates. nice eh. later than in between the journeys i had a bad feeling cause i didn't know what time it strts, so i was afraid that we were going to miss it. then reached school and was so glad they havent strt yet. did my prayers and the game strts. omg the questions were so easy. grade nine science mostly and kinetic and potential energy usually. me and kaha a grade 11 girl answered most of the questions the other help to agree and support us like that. so we rock the science and social studies question but we totally suck at Islamic studies.embarrassing much. tsk2. we got every I.S. question wrong. then our hero,ilyas, saved us from the embarrassment. the question was: how many surahs were there in the quran? AND NOBODY KNEW. astagfirullah. xcpt for ilyas. we were so happy. oh guess what the prize. $10 for winners $5 for runner up =.=" but thank god we still won didd we. haha. then got home and tired wtched shark tales and all.







make story short:
shaheed lose and i won
&& i think im sick.

the whole journey, i kept saying to myself today is going to be an awesome day over and over. well it was quite. french class was lively. the tchr was all of the sudden so cheerful he kept sayin gi love you too to the guys and calling them dears. HAHA. the english KILLED MY MOOD. i got ditched alone during lunch. how sad. how i miss ain and the other sisters all of the sudden that time. during kutbah i slept. sagal was very comfortable cos i land my head on top of her shoulder. then the girls chairs were covered with chalk dust excpt for mine. but then later MY CHAIR got chalked too and wet. >;[ mad mad mad. while native i planned to eat my jellybeans i brought to school. CRAP then. i realized that it was gone and i found the plastic below my table! DAMNN YOU BOYS. ibraheem told me what happen and all. GRRR. on the way home was so scary, there was this guy i think he was hung over talking about "fucking you" something like that as i only kept hearing the word "fuck". scarry. then walk alone while talking on the phone with anoosh.



i got to admit but with ibraheem taking the bus is fun.

morning, the sisters and other ppl made me smile when they attack me with IM thanks, the bus was PACKED. the snow was troublesome. the morning was okay.the class wasnt that high today cos khaled wasnt in hah. the lunch was rawking awesome. some grade 11 rubbed snow in my face so badly.2 of them like jumped on me! First i cant really breathe and there were snow in my nose and mouth. then i took a handful of snow and rubbed back one of them next i found out i got attacked! CRAP. then played around and all. computer i actually got 96 not 98. hrmph but alhamdlliah thanks god riight.i got 91 for maths. :D yay yay! lateer then snowing like hard. Ibraheem just again being weird. as usual he was walking to the bus stop with us, all of the sudden i found him beside me. weird. and aisha just pissed me off. RAWWWR. the days really fast somehow. talked to abdulasis on msn. omg weird dude la kau. he forced me to play burning building cause hes too scared to play T or D. im pure evil la. im good at it. the game was hilarious!
he made me laugh so hard that i cant stop smiling. so then talked to anoosh on the phone and did my native homework actually. but its somehow like english so i called it eng homework. thanks syimir for helping me out. i hope the teacher like it. now im really sleepy and tired. talking not much with maya.

TODAY THANKS,
MAI.MAYA.SKIN.DANIAL.NADHIRAH.SYIMIR.
ABDULASIS.ANOOSH.ASHA.IBRAHEEM.LEYLA.
ME. ;D good maarks.

today is my laughing day. i laughed the WHOLE DAY. most of it were dirty stuffs. XP then during lunch i heard they had a snowball fight GIRLS V.S BOYS. and i missed it! i had student council meeting hrmph. well at least ppl laughed at my joke. okay tk important. then after lunch, as i was late for class everyone was like dead serious it was weiird. then all of the sudden my table, and sum dudes strted to somehow be wild it and nthe class all of the sudden was WILD everyone was hyper it was the best moment. it was funny. i laughed too much today.

maya and me had the most crappiest fight ever this morning and it was so random.we shud frame it u noe. hrmph.

last night, while talking to syimir i told him the most random thing he ever heard after that everything he said was a laughing matter for me even the word "ok la" then make me smile and laughing even more when he kept apologizing from making me laughing. haha dude u cant be random and yet u were random too yesterday.

something is just weird today. i feel diffrent as im diffrent i change like so badly i became more bossier,egoist,and meaner and other stuff which is so weiird. i really have to know how ive change. dear sisters, be honenst ad truthfully tell me. i want to ask syimir but he will end up saying either oh i think it rude or i dont know or sumtin else.no offence XP. okay shut up.

is that it?
the end.

morning was weird. mai, its not that i like to specialize on the sisters but i got o u all in diffrent moment and time and u ppl are like special in u ppl own way.comeon dont be like that. im nt saying that maya and ain are better than the others. its just that im close with them.you ppl are all equal on the same level no one is on the higher rank. xcpt for yan. :D hehehehhehe jeng jeng jeng. i made a stupid mistake for math quiz, shot. or else i will get 100%. i got my sciences marks for first term report card. and im not satisfied with it.grr. i got 85! i dont care bot shaheed's marks cos it makes me even more mad. then i got marks for natives. okay these marks doesn't satisfied or make me happy at all!i realized that when u work hard, study hard, you have to do it with you heart and be humble.calm yourself and dont get all excited. always remember Allah and pray before u do something.gym wasnt xciting. or fun. French was weird. i asked the tchr for a piece of orange and somehow ppl strt laughing. =.= oh i attack some how burst my bubble or upsetness and anger on anoosh. but then everything was cool. thing is just weird today.

P.S.

AKU TGH TAKOT NI. psl aljunied nyer exams. wheres my notes. i need my notes. i need to study now. i need to be prepared! da la zaki tkot kn aku with the exams.

reread the post below.

YANNY&MAYA&KAK ANI YOU PPL ARE BIG ASSY IN THE HOLE.
YOU #$%^&!!
I WAN TO SMASH THAT PEE ASS PEE OF YOURS!
aku shud get first bkn krg!!
RAWWWWR.



the end.

well im tired of following you everywhere. its just not me. whats the point, it makes me more like a follower than an independent person. guess what, im an independent person. so heck, if u want to come with me come if u dont fine. why cos you actually end up leaving me alone at the corner. thats for you.

todaay,
missed the bus today and i blamed it all on shaheed. he kept on saying"diam bodoh" everytime i open my mouth.it was hilarious! computer class was rawking funny. i out an weird accent and anoosh made me hyper until 3rd period. weird assy tchr. french ruin my mood the whole day. THAANKS. the lunch CRAP! i got A for science project so close of getting B-. scary.
after school chatted. that person hurt my feeling badly. i know its so stupid as its kinda of childish. i dont know why but somehow i took in seriously. you hurt me badly that u took my smile away that i just had.u tried to get it back after you know that i was hurt cos i told you but i dont know why i jus wont accpt it but i will one day. syimir tried his best to make me smile. thanks for caring you. but he just didd really make me smile. but then smile came back with laughter. dad and shaheed cracked me up so badly during dinner that i was rolling on the floor. shaheed's question made me laugh so loud and dad's french "oui,oui" story made me rolling on the floor. ILYboys♥
;]


ehk yanny,
aku miss ko ar. lame seyy kamu tk online. i miss crapping with you. the weird conversation.
MASOK AR.

maya,
i know you guys will help me out but cpt2 la im running out of time. how am i suppose to blaja in 5 weeks or less.

ehk i wan a PSP, sony coolpix(only maya knows whats that),a cellphone of my choice bla balik spore,wonderful life full of great friends and true friends and dpt masok aljunied in 2008,dpt masok sec3 and also forever with the sisters.

i dont wan to masok irsyad. pls pls pls. HELP ME.

my blog is full of stuff that happen thru out the days. but i realized something whats the point. why would ppl wannt to know what happen during my days. its only for me to know unless something interesting or will kept as memories.

i have 5 more weeks left till ill be back. how happy i am. i just cant wait. but is this really what i want. OF COURSE it is. there with my sisters. then again i dont think ill be with them the whole entire week. or i might. i dont even know if i might go to aljunied. the biggest possibility for me is to masok aljunied. its an easy and go for me to masok irsyad. but i dont want to masok irsyad cos aljunied is living in me. thats my second home where i meet the important ppl in my life and live in me that make me me, the sisters. i wont be the way i am if its not for them. i appreciate all of them for coming into my life. i do want to masok aljunied but how? i have a test to take and few weeks to study will i be able to manage it all. my mind is blank when it comes to expressing it to people. but when im alone with my mind, all of them rush out making me think and make me confuse.it just doesn't make any sense.

im blanked
thats it.
i have lots in my mind but hard to let it go.

Monday,
i cant remember anything else except that my nose was bleeding. it was ouch. seriously.its
wednesday right now and i someow cant feel my nose like my nose was before. i think dislocated it.OMGAWD. awesome. i think. and gym we played football.WEEWT~ beside all those are that monday morning are always the best and will always be the best amin.

Tuesday,
the morning i jus feel angry at the world.i dont knnow why. i was jus angry. then shaheed kept drinking my hot chocolate.i cant really remember anything much xcpt for sort of boring tuesday with intersting things that happen and special which i cant remember. but gym was awesome and hilarious too. its not that i dont like basketball but i just feel bad playing it. but during this game, i sweat for real! and the tchr gave alot of compliment while i was playing as she said i was playing tough. i swear it was hilarious trying to get the ball. then i perfect catch and jump. okay shaza DIAM. brag much riight.

Wednesday,
i had to run in the morning to catch up with the bus. its like embrassing tho somehow.
i had this weird attititude all of the sudden. i didd talk to anyone when i reached scaooshool.
i just shut up like that. then i was hyper in like SNAP. bwhahahha. weiird. goo riight.the twinnys cracked me up so badly. that we had weird convos and so fun ones too. then at school, anooshs cell no. was written on the board and she got 3 prankedcall. gawd thses boys are so immature.
they have no life! plus they are SO WEIRD.we wanted to know stuff so i talked to one of shaheeds fren. the shiest kid turn to be the not-so-too-many-question type of kid. from the prblm to a friendly convo. then talked to syimir. you scared me. i dont get you. what do u mean about all those stuff. you beenn thinking again huh. i played wedding dash WEWT~ then talk to syimir and this girl from muslimah alive camp,i forgot her name bt i call her rin. we were so close during the camp that we go every year. farah noes wat im talking about.if u do remember. later than watched ET and go to sleep.

Thrsday,
today. hrmph. morning was like that. reached school and start talking to people. but i was as talkative and hyper as yesterday.weiird i think. i dont feel like explaining the dayl but it was just hmm what shud i say.diffrent.a little weird.but non of them really describe it. and after school i got angry agaiin. for nothing.

i dont know what else.

on Saturday, aunt omaima,my sitter, invited the family for dinner. the food was okay. i ate everything, so there i sound like a pig. the brownie was DELICIOUS, it was so moise. so while the adults chatted away, me and shifa were at the corner playing games from the cellphone and taking pictures with mine the whole time, quite fun though.

SUNDAY,
spend the whole day infornt of the computer playing wedding dash.then all of the sudden,i stopped just like that i start doing my work. finished everything up somehow in a rush and later chatted with syimir and shut everything down and sleep.

MONDAY.
i woke up at 620 andn was suppose to get ready in 30min.WTH. everything including cleaning my bag. andn you have no dea how long it takes me to wear my hijab. but then agaiin wow i got ready in 20 min including getting my hot chocolate ready. XP it was a morning until i reached school. GAWD theese people make me stress. i noe we had a 2 test straight but come one give me a brck! somehow i got brainwash there after i had a "ur stupid" argument with shaheed. computer and geo test was okay. i hope i score 100% amin. french was BLEH.lunch was interesting. we were commenting on ppl. i was known as the leprechauns, why? cos i look pure innocent when im pure evilicious only people who knows me well knows so.and so on which i quite somehow agree. i have secrets. >:D well sumtin like that. then science was noisy until that dirty thought me anoosh and asha had. -cough- so siick you dont need to know. we were laughing so hard and DISGUSTING. the sickest joke i ever made. tsk tsk tsk. then gym easy say IT WAS FOOTBALL. AWESOME MUCH. but the game wasnt that fun cos i nose got hit agaiin. this time bleeding and i can still feel the pain. i think thats it. home. i had a stupid argument wiht my mother, which was my fault cause i had no idea wtheck is wrong with me!

okay there.

thursday night with syimir was the HIT. well, i cant help being bored and he always try to make me do sumtin. well i forgot to tell you that i had a veery very evilistic mood going on. well he wanted to help me so we played TRUE OR DARE. -insertslyface- only he knows whats going on. those dares, that he got so scared that he only pick true. CHICKEN. and those truth which crack me up so badly that im going to tease him so badly that bwhahahaha. no kidding but i might. well thanks to him that we played till i got tired and doze off just like that.

FRIDAY!!
very very odd morning. geography "test" was quite easy. eng was uh awkward. LUNCH WAS OFF THE HOOK! khadijah,neema,anoosh,zahra and aisha RAWK MY LUNCH LIKE CLIICK. u sicky sicky yellow red orange pick minded ppl. then health was about marriage. it was laughing here and there. about boys and all. jeng jeng jeng. we got 10 min late for the next class. tchr sureer wasnt at school. so the un trained tchr taught us. god that moment i really have to go to the washroom. and she was like no. i kep arguing back ad god i wish i could beat her up. got released i ran to the washroom. what a relief. ;D then at home i slacked just like that so tired. talk to maya. now sat morning talking to sha after did the eww eww eww dishes.
theres my day.

WEDNESDAY
today morning was cold. everything was lame. i dun like today. i was been really clumsy.then i had executive student council meeting, then i changed. i was like all quiet i hate noise and jus want the world to keep quiet. i need candy. nuthin much happen. things have change alot then after lunch. i hate the school dramas that the girls made. pathetic much. after all those gloomy times then balik yannys post made me laugh a little. hah. we got connections ar girl dah dasar sisters cannnot help it whaat. we were meant together.one for all, all for one.


OUHK I GOT 100% FOR MY GEO TEST. ITS LIKE A MIRACLE. nobody really understands it xcpt me and anoosh about our test getting full marks. but im happy.
thanks Allah.




ehk i really hope that i will get a sony coolpix and a PSP and a wonderful life kat singapore. amin.

today was nothing interesting so there.



THURSDAY.
okay messsed up.

gawwd my period is really messing my mood. bad bad bad. my morning was sad. even the most cheerful song wasnt ouhk so cheerful. then reach school. omg why cant every day be like mondays. why must it be like this. pfft. i guess thats life. ouhk me,fatima,anoosh and ilham had to clean as in SCRUB all the desk(girls) cos we were somehow caught "doddle" on the desk. i swear it wasnt me it was fatima and he said that " best frieds stick together". we dont even hangn out with eacch other like that we only sit together =.= how can we get punish for something we didd evenn do. but i got to admit it was kind of fun. but the bleach's smell was crap. -gaggs- i hope everyday was is the best day of my life at school and socialize much at school like i was. amin. u wont understand. only i do.("p) computer class was a crack. ha. didd expect that to happen. here's the story:

me: oh my god, im goiing to fail. im going to fail. im going to fail.
tchr:(calling names to give back the test back until it reach my name) shazaa.
me: im going to fail.
tchr: shazaa!
me: yeah, im going to fail.
tchr: good job, you got the highest.
me: SAY WALAHI!
tchr: -smiles-

i swear computer test was so weiird. i dun even get the english. it was like going round and round. i thought the wither one of the guys were going to get the highest. plus i didd even study much. the stuff i study werent even in the test! wow. i am a geek. xD . eng was dead bored. we had to listen to this thing about poems. then have to imagine and picture whats going on. close the eyes and head downs. too slow that i fell asleep. they shud have left me sleeping. then the eng is really hard to argue, i swear. i told him he should be the debate club tchr in charge. i bet we're going to win if he was in charge. hah. well he said he took lawyer studies and was about to become a lawyer but he change his mind.


off to do my geography project and test and also science project.
whats new??

i start my day very very very gloomy,moody and what ever which is sad,mad,anngry and what ever mood which is do not include smiling and laughing. my morning was cloudy and the day was cloudy and cold. all the song in my mp3 were sad and down slow songs. "what the hell. whats is going on. gawd!" I CANT EVEN SMILE. i didd talk and was so tireed and sleepy. even my hot chocolate didd cheer me up cos it was bad. then i reached school, anoosh asked whats with the face. the teacher asked whats with the hoodies on. thenn everything was okaay.then my mood change. native test was easy i hope i get 100%. amin. even asha did well cos i taught her cos shes like a failing student and she need this test to help her and she did well. so as a friend im quit proud.
later lunch was weiird. played soccer using a basketball. gym wasnt that fun. i got hit on the face with a basketball. now my nose is red after few hours till now and my glasses are like screw up. GRR. i got 100% for French test AAAAAAHHHH!!! YAY!! shaheed made me this guessing game the whole journey on the way home. URGGH. then makan and sumtin sumtin so yeeah. thats it,





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AKU HATE KORANG♥.

urgh. i want to hit you guys so badly that i cry and hugged you girls.

HATE HATE HATE hate hate hate hate hate hate hate HATE HATE HATE hate hate

today, after the whole last night thing. only that certain person knows and cheered me up with the person positive thoughts (thanks kamu.) i feel much better. my morning was excellent. i had this good fresh awesome attitude.i dress all perfect and all. log in the internet as i was SUPER EARLY. then shaheed rock my morning by making me laugh although it was a little insult but no offenses.Geography was awesome with asha and anoosh. lunch was looooong cos the time change and we totally lost it. lucky i cant pray cos i missed the prayers. gym was hilarious. it was sooo funny that i start to take off my shoe. its was so rough and funny. neema and farah rocks my period waaaay much. and sum other people too though. on the way back home, i was sitting between 3 dudes. omg their conversation was so cracked-in-the-butt. i was like somehow want to be in it. should have just open my mouth and talk to them cos it was very inviting though. next time im joining in the conversation. hah.

aiinkecik..
aku miss kamu bangeeet siih.
aku nak hang out gan ko.
crACK your lame jokees.
and everything else that we usually do.
you made me be me and control me.
IMYLM gawwd.

farah!!
i was eating my chicken and mom made me finish the bones,
when i teringat you.
remeber when we eat our nasi lemak with ayam,
all our tulang we will give it to u.
and you also taught us to finish out tulang until dead cleean.
aku miss miss miss kau.


note:
the hating on top is when i saw pics of raya and some important events from maya and yanny flicster. but paliing geram is yannys' pics.

p.s.
To the dearest Diyana,
knock what out?!

last night talked to few ppl. i was high(which i like it) all random question pop into my head where i attack syimir with all those questions. then i laugh here and there with nadirah cos of our silly memories. and watch monster-in-law. i woke up agaiin at 3. i wanted to stay awake again but eventually that certain person pop into my head which made me go back to sleep. so there i slept because of you. then woke up taalk to my all my dearies♥ wow. there brought the smile into my face on sunday morning. thanks guys.morning was quite a downer. talked to aisha and anoosh on the phone. there it 2 things hits me.then nadirah's words made me rethink.

nad-eh,rocks!!:	i like ur life
09. ツ Shazzzaaa,:	haha good one. u like my life?? why?
nad-eh,rocks!!:	you look sooooo......5 minutes later...ooooooooooo happy...
09. ツ Shazzzaaa,:	haha wooit panjang nyer oooooooooooooooooo. de
09. ツ Shazzzaaa,:	happy? explain ikit. i dun even know if im happy.
nad-eh,rocks!!:	haha
09. ツ Shazzzaaa,:	seriously haha.

1st thing that pop in head was that:
why do people hate each other. technically we hate that person cos of her sumtin which annoys us which bug us. but actually, we are somehow like pointing it to ourselves cos we think that we're better than that person cos we dont want that person to be like that maybe cos were jealous of something about that certain person. well that person is just himself or herself and you're like trying to make that person change herself.
example:
a person hates you cos you get all the attention without asking for it. There shes hates you and somehow wants you to change cos shes jealous or she thinks she shud get that attention cos shes better. that person wants you to change yourself and not be yourself and be the person she wants you to be.

2nd
i realize i do not know who i am. what type of person i am. how do i act around ppl. i dont even know anything. Im not me. as i cant be me. i want to know something that im hiding from myself which is hard to find. the only person that make me feel that i am me is when im with syimir. things jus flow like that and also with rusda. i dont even know what im talking about. and i need help.

the last time i was in spore, i cant wait to go to canada bcos i want to run away from my prblm. i want to run away from that person and nvr think of that person.now i cant wait to go back to spore cos i want to run away from my school, the girls here, and anoosh; its not that i dont like her. i dont want to be like her and i want to be me cos when you start hanging out with that person you will turn into that person. she is somehow changing me. and i dont want that i want to AN INDIVIDUAL.i just need someone to talk. something just make me feel that i have a prblm.

conclusion:
its like im not acting normally when i want to be normal.
people think that im happy but i may not.
cos i dont have the sad face.
people cannot read expression in my face cos you can only see me smiling.
even my little sister says so. as she said she always see me smiling.
she call me the girl from the magazine.cos i only smile.
cos i only wan to take things positively.
as theres no negative things in the world.

Thursday

NOTE: was full of(sort of) stress. i have to do an English journal about a book, which is very very very long as i have to do 5 entries. then i have my health project and i have to study for my french overall test to help me boost my French mark as im not satisfy with 84% AD LASTLY geography quiz. CRAP much. i need both test and quiz to boost up my marks especially GEOGRAPHY! so i start doing my english at 6 and got it done at 8. later then i had to find a newsletter layout for my health cos i dont want to do in a report way. make it a little out of the box. shaheed's laptop got virus-ed and my laptop was not upgraded after it got refreshed. so i had to use dad's laptop. gawd he and his mac. he keeps on bragging about how good or hoe mordern mac is. how professional it is. well i agree but he just like to rub it in my face. well what ever makes him happy. by 10, the substance abuse:cannabis health project was done. At 11 i strt studying. by the time i was tired already. then i doze off half way.

FRIDAY

i was slow in the afternoon and confuse in the morning. its was so cold. my fingers were froze white. the whole way to school i read my geography. it was so peaceful cause the public schools have no school. i just had this great feeling, the only thing that doesn't complete the "moment" was a cup of hot chocolate.

1st period french: TEST. woaaah wee i did well i might boost my mark. i didd even study that much. after test rush to the washroom and took pics.:P

2nd period geography: QUIZ.everything i learn that i knew perfectly was half gone. and all the one i didd focus on was glued in my mind. baad moment. god a little stressed there. there goes my geography.

3rd period ENGLISH: ENGLISH journal. got my pop quiz back. omg the marks and the answers were so hilarious that the teacher puts :"a very hilarious tries". anoosh agrees that it was funny. well at least i try rather than a blanks around my paper. but i participate a lot in class while they were checking the answers. the teacher knows that the quiz wasn't me and expect me to score 100% the next test. AMIN.

LUNCH: cold cold cold. sleep during friday prayers while khutbah. i cant help it. oh Allah pls forgive me.

4th: HEALTH PROJECT. wow mine was commented as " nicely done, very organize and very professionally done". told dad that and he said " ALAAAH BIASE LA MAC KN." "haha aah ye. tahu mac. tk ya keep on repeating." he reply " da jealous sebab tk dpt mac sudah la" =.= then our topic was about MAC's programs and everything. thats how me and my dad connects with each other. the topic will always and most fun to talk about and see wild stuff is when we discuss about MAC. so back at school. the back rows(me, anoosh,asha,ilham and fatima) we being a little bit wild. he all at our feet on the desk. not like on on the desk but sumtin like that. we were laughing and joking our hijabs off as the boys, the girls, the tchr and the projects made us laugh. it was fun tho everyone got HIGH during health.

5th period NATIVE: i got 18.5 / 20 for quiz. yay A+!! later than was the elders interview quite hilarious. as usually the boys were interrupting the class agaiin that its not even funny. thats what they always do. they just never shut up. but then the tchr told us her interview with her aunt. it was the most interesting story ever. even the boys shut up and listen and nvr interrupted. we even lost the track of time but all of us want to hear the rest of the story but it was half way. we all got freshed up and nobody was high anymore.

HOME
came home eat internet.slept at 11 and woke up at 3 cant sleep back so went online. kene yelled dgn syimir and had a small lecture. upgraded myspace and talk to ppl. till morning. mama told me to make pancakes. so now im in the kitchen with pancakes in the pan. ouhk that night i took drum lessons from youtube. THUMBS UP. im lovin it

ouhk yeaaaah.
im strting to turn into the person whom i usually hang out.
whiich i am extremly horrific about it.
cant waiit to get back to singapore with the sisters.
CANT WAIIIT.
and grr. i miss another jalan raya with them.
HRMPH.crap sey.



HAPPY BIRTHDAY AISYA!
IMYLM
gawwd i miss her craps in the train.
the way she made me laugh.
the inner jokes we had which made hasanah made.
the memory of her chocolate sundae and my strawberry sundae.
jus hope we will be together always.




THE END.
p.s. DRUM ARE LOVE♥

HAPPY HELLOWEEN.

lawl. yupp can feel the excitement much. really had quite fun tho just now in school. i was drunk dot that final i swear i scared so many ppl. and in a bad mood cos i jus had a fight with shaheed. a sec ago. and i told him to go to hell cos im mad like dead.

so the treater starts coming in. the kids were so cute in their costumes. RAWWWR. later then i put my hoodies and answers the door. well i saw these grade 11 kids coming in. the girl was a pretty fairy and the guy was ninja. they were nice asians.

me: "arent you guys too old for trick or treat?"
fairy" shhh. why arnt you out for trick or treat"
me:" ouhk i got grounded" (note: islamically not allow)
ninja:"naughty naughty naughty. tsk tsk tsk"
me:" yeah yeah, happy helloween"

then later at about 8, people starts closing their lights which means NO MORE CANDIES. so i asked mama if i can walk around the neighborhood, then mama wanted to join. i was in my hoods(massive biig covered everything jus like a hijab) no hijabs cos it was going to be fast. on the way i saw shermarke, shaheed's closest bud from middle school, he was staring at me but mama tired to make sure hes eyes were on me cos i wasnt wearing my hijabs the was grabbing my hoods so it will be near to my face. GAWD, hes fren was like trying to peek thru.
thr guy was cute. :D

:P
i guess thats it.
great experiences

BLEH, i dont know my days these days. I pretty got over myself about me changing, the week after raya changed. i was me agaiin wild thing happen every single day. tuesday was raining ang i was wet the whole day. That was the day i liked myself. no more quiet me, later then things happen. Geography class was superb. not the studies but the surrounding. LOUD music turned on without teacher somehow noticing, which is very funny. Fatimah K. wanted to throw chalk at the boys so they want to do their stuff( nobody listens during geography class they only do their OWN stuff) accidentally hit shaheed( where he thought it was me) then me ad Anoosh dare her to throw a paper ball at him and i dare Asha to throw a paper ball at Ilyas. it was practically funny that all of us were laughing our head of till we all go hungry. even the guys were laughing. Flirting much. i just like making shaheed mad. took his kofi (that he always use which made his hair FLAT) and he actually complained to our computer class tchr( which is our homeroom tchr) but he actual took my side. People thinks he has a cute hair. well maybe. then i cant remember what else. cos i forgot to take trck of my days, SORRY.

ouhk yeah i have made my decision between irsyad ad aljunied. my choice will be irsyad where i will be going to sec3. then the next year since automatically aljunied kn( all sec must go there) so there i will go sec4, i picked irsyad cos i dun need to take my exams. so easy for me. i might be leaving Canada on the eve of christmas i hope i dont miss boxing day.
ouhk yeah mama got her Master at NTU.

to my lovers,
good lucks with ur exams.
hope u all did well.
see u next tiime.

today i was a little less evilstic. i was evil the whole month in the high school. so today geography test was easy. i was so lucky i actually pay attention in class the day before. hah for the firsts time in geography i pay attention. during lunch was hilarious. too many spitting out food. and after prayer, i didd do anything and was just talking to this grade 11 girl and all of the sudden

gr11: " whats ur name?"
me :"shazaa why?"
gr11: " wow u look innocent and decent, but ure actually evil. thats good"
anoosh: " she is evil, she so mean":
me: "thank you"

pfft.
haha.

STOMP THE YARD was awsome. comments comment comments on the dudes. -melts-
enough say.
tomrow will be field trip with the grade 4, im ditching school. woot.

urgh i hate school so mucho, i cant waiit to get my butt at singapore. lets make my day simple.
i hate school it was boring. im not me. im super mean. and i meant it.[i have been reading the convo i had with maya long time ago and that was the me i like].

fatimah kept on making me laugh and i have been ignore so much. im tired of it. had my maths test(ZOMGOAT EASY BUT CARELESS) and french quiz(easy).

during native, the teacher gave us our letters and journal. all writing stuff and she marked it. and i beat mr.best writer(yanny's extra hawt guy,shaheed) and my letter will be proberly be send to the First Nation students. YAY. well that made my day cause my writing was awesome[according to mom ad teacher] mama said my grammer /ennglish improved and my writing was good. shes impressed. shaheed got jealous.LOL♥ my journal was about my friends. and was dedicated.
-winks-

i read this convo i had with maya♥ bot wan then other stuffs. aww i miss that moment. i am missing everything i love. talked to syimir asking him to check my assignment and do this and that. hah. poor guy. THANKS SYIMIR♥.

the first day of raya, that night we went to cik harims hse,inside the car i felt asleep and my parents recorded my snoring. wthell. i adit i was super tired but embrasssing like omg. cos hairs was inside the car but he was sleeping too.okay kt sane eat lots and there was this brownie. ZOMGOAT. so moise. then malam take pics, the kids main buaga api. when back home.

2nd day evryone strted coing to cik rahidahs hse cos she had an open house. the only thing i did was walk around the big house,eat,watch dvd(melayu),and talk. i walk here and there. cik piah gave me the inai. omg. she should not have i have been playing with it and look what happen. RAWWR. bad moi. later than i got duit raya and when upstairs(away from the people) and internet. the sleep.

had to go back to ottawa. so spend few times then we went to a house eat agaiin.(im going to gain lot of weigh soon) then sleep reach home. did geo. and eat pizza and eatch tv and sleep.

school. bored. hhate it.
thats the words to describe school.

yanny♥ i dun get your comment.

hah

my face on 1st of Raya,

We left ottawa at 1150 then stop at kingston for zohor prayers. on the way to kingston i fell asleep while trying to fix the cd for lagu hari raya. gawd when i woke up my neck hurts alot! later than didd fall asleep until i reached toronto.

as soon as i reach kt cik taib's apartment i got high. well shaheed made me go high. had iftar at cik taib's hse.the food was so yummy. then kept on eating untill i fall.then the takbir, which all of the sudden remind me of nenek. mostly ppl cry cos they teringat nenek. later talked to kak syafiqah then when inside room and chat with the other girls cos the other room people dah strt to get emotional. i wasnt that talk-ish.then when back home and fell asleep. that was fast.

cik rahidah got a cat name shaza. lawl. okay i lost my mood of raya all of the sudden the first day of raya wasnt that great. i want to go back to Singapore so badly. but i hope raya here will be great.
i wannt to cry badly but i cant, i miss all my family members and friends.


i reliased that the slengerhoods are the people who make me enjoy myself as we talk like non stop. but with people he i jus smile and nod. me and ain usually crack stupid jokes, she teaches me[alot] how to crack stupid lame jokes. and make people laugh and smile. how i miss that gummybear alot. i cant waiit till i get my assy kat singpore.pray for me people. 2 more months and im back where i belong.
-sob-

okay im getting emotionally emotional.
I MISSED YOU.

[MSG TO ALL PEOPLE WHO KNOW ME.]

Selamat hari raya.
maaf zahir batin.
you guys are lucky butts that u can enjoy raya there.
so USE IT WISELY.
i noe u have exams and all, but still.
Shaza nak minta maaf klw ade salah silap.
terkasar bahase ker.
terkua hurt your feelings ker.
ape ape yg laen yg negative.
maaf kn la ehk.
HALAL KAN MAKAN MINOM.
[klw tk mkn pon minom, klw tk minom ker mkan la]
so maaf kan la ehk.



ehk aku giler Syaiful Apek♥
&& Aku adore abg sedareku.

THE ENDS♥

after talking to syimir and maya things changed a little bit. their encouragment made me smile wat better. i bough my phone with the good camera and brough it to school. during class took few pics and also during lunch i took few pic which completely qite change my day. and also thanks to the grade 7. you guys rock my uniform, xpecially u sumayah. then gym was rocking i loved the football game.
can we play again pls.


Wednesday was no school talk to maya and few ppl and left to abraar to send the little kids. then later had to volunteers. so sory maya♥. from SK to grade 4. i wanted to go to grade 8 but tchr anisa got me first. later then went to JK and when to gym to help tchr anisa mark. i notice alot of ppl knnw my name. nyahaha. wow im famous. muahaha.

thusday send them to school didd want to go volunteer and went shopping with mama we bough food mostly. waiting for baba then we will buy stuff. mama told me to buy a blouse so i could wear for raya. no way im wearing skirt. grrr. i expect kurong or gown sumtin like that. no skirt. tomorrow might go shopping for kasut raya. raya will be at toronto with the singporean. woohoo.



THE END♥

tell me a story.

Im nt disappointed, no one broke my heart. Nobody died, i lost no one. nothing bad happen but why am i like this? Im not the jolly me. im not the high me. im not the outgoing me. evrything had changed. i dont smile like i use to. my highness wasnt like the highness im usually with ain. im not loud. i cant speck up anymore. ask maya when the time i talk to her. im not me. i dun get all high and all im nt xcited and all the only thing was that i ans her question with few words. its jus simple. boring.un-me.

okay so today was awkward. i came to school oh so quiet. not me right? kept quiet and laugh a little bit. asha and some other girls made my day. but usually asha. my tic tac toe buddy. when we're bored there u go tic tac toe and insults will come out. nyahaha. then later sped my lunch at the swing with anoosh about stuffs then sharif came and we had a liittle convo. aoosh was much of a flirt. hahaha. then hang with the other girls and the grade 8 girls ad guys had this " war" pathetic mucho. the grade 9 girls were like "go flirt somewhere else." then i had this headache bcos of the sunlight. then gym played soccer. ;D u all shud see my face. total embarrassment. it was so red.ouhk yah i got hit on a face. and i stink alot. XP then got reaally tired. reached home and thats all. log in the net. talked to syimir about stuff. he's like my everything i need. hes always there when i need help. then later the sisters will support me.he reliased too that i had change i wasnt the jolly me. the xciting me.. im not outgoing anymore. but like he said " kep on smiling dont focus on the sad part" he made me promise that when he see me hw wansn me smiling. woooah buddy there. well that made me smile. but not mile smile. im nt that happy ever since im in high school. watch hannah montana then prepared for buka. and study for french test and did my science.

wednesday is NO SCHOOL TILL NEXT NEXT TUESDAY.
SWEEEEET.
;D

pray for me.

so friday was quite awesome,but it will be better if sagal and dana went with us they cant cos they the principal said they cant grrr. so i tot i was late and for god sake i was wearing a skirt and running. ZOMGOAT how annoying it was. then went i reach school there was nt much ppl which made me not late. ;D so then later talk to people until nouran came and hang out with her, golly how i miss that girl. we walk here and there then we ran away from sarah hahaha it was soo funny. then i had to do work cos i volunteering. then things happen with me and him. XP anoosh called and she said " you guys are like best friend" haha well hope we could be best friend. the food during iftar was so yummy. soon at night nouran got high and i got half sleepy. i was the first persoon to sleep. the sleep was so peeaceful. the morning was like that. after that we wtch meet the robinson and listen to music and all. astagfirullah imagine that during ramandan. i planed to go back to sleep but plans changed. packed up went to the gym and played basketball. and went back home sleep until 2 and internet.

sunday was boring.
tomorow school. holiday coming up.
EID im going to toronto. yay mucho. can raya with the singaporean, XP

ps
i reliased i have changed alot. im nt me anymore and im not happy!!
RAAWWWR.

so yesterday nothing much really happen xcpt that i found out that the girls are crappy. it was xtreme lame. a girl backstab on of my friend or buds. which is bad. during ramadhan lagi. golly. then had a convo with AM and asha got mad. and i felt used im tired of beingn the 3rd person and xcuse moi. IM NOT AN OWL. im so happy that im mean and evil nyahahah. im lovin it. talk to sagal and nouran yesterday too. aww loving them mucho. i miss them so mucho. but we're goiing to meet them on friday at school cos there is this sleepover thingy. yay! they mad me laugh so much. well i got high there thats why. hahahha i gave them ideas to make me laugh.

TODAY,
hah. i dunno mucho happen. and so lazy to tell. went back home with shaheed and aisha. ibraheem walked with us till the end of the roaad. lawl dude made me smile somehow. and AM acuse me for copycatting his cell i beg ur pardon MR. i have no intension to copy u cos the phone is soooo not my dreamy phone nayahahah. back home talked to nouran and sagal and AM. then talked to sarah. THE HIGH SCHOOL CORRUPTED HER. :D bro. M ur scaring me and i will bring my science textbook. he said that i have prblm that he heard bot. ZOMGOAT. scared scared scared. shifa said that Abraar is nt like theAbraar cos there no more me and school is boring nayahhaha. i feel so loved. :D im so popular at school haha for god sake the school is so small evryone knw evryone. hahahahhahahahahaha. okaaay i thinnk thaaats all.


THE END.

xcited for tomrow. goiiing to meet my lovly fren
THEN CAN CAMWHORE NAYAHAHHAHAHAHA.
BEST!!

love you all.
xpeciaaly YOU SLENGERHOOD. ;D
&& specially AIN ♥
xoxo

ZOMGOAT.



today was so funny. i kept on laughing every single moment. these girls kept on talking bot the boys and making fun of them and all. hah! the boys helped them to make me laugh too. lawls. it was too fuuny. boys like zak,ibrahim, the GP(gay pervs: AM[ahmad]&ilyas)and yeaah. girs like anoosh,fatimah(Q),fatimah(K),rahmah,mariam and asha. poor asha man. i nooe that dude is so sicky sicky minded. no worries im going straight to his face and say "PERV" and tell him to back off. golly aisha u make asha's life even worse. why did u do that/ but things happen evrytone knows.


LAWLS.

okay my darlings. i had my sectary speech jus nw. zomgoat i nvr in my life got stunned like that i was so shaking big tiime and u can hear it by my voice. i have no idea what happen. that was soo un me.
well i survived. i nvr knew these seniors we so cool. they were awsoome. i need voes i strted late i didd knw i was able to run. RAWWR. pls pray for me sisters. i so want it badly. voing day is tomrow wed and thrs. many many days so pray for me before u brck ur fast cos thats when Allah wont reject the prayers. pls pls pls. theen im telling u my oppenent(guy) he is soooo cute .XP okaay shaza back to the topic.
i came ou frm the gym then this sis(i love her soo much) strt hugging me frm he back and said that was a greaat speech and i was soo cute (i was so short) and kept hugging witout letting o i jus smile and hug her back. i huged few ppl today. then the a candidate of VP was like u did greaat. and hugged me i cant remeber wat she said else and shes in grade 11. i was like woaaah. yay me. then i shook my oppenents hand and told her her speech was greeeat. but yeeaah. i hope i wiin man.. grr. got to go some campaigning thingy wish me best of lucck. wat else to say. i got many to say. RAWWR. but i gtg.ouh yeeaah last period played soccer.(yayness) and went back home hugged my 2 frens and ibraheem catch up with us and walk woth us until the end of the road. lawl. okay i walk with a guy to the end of the road with shaheed. from the back it look so wrong. haha. but i got to admit ibraheem is liek one of my close fren too. we talk bot stuff a fast argument and yeeeah. weiird dude tho. likes to dream bo stuff. he need a life. ouhk yaa i reliaes he had freckles on his nose. lawl afer 1 yrs i jus notice it last week. >:D

MY OPPONENT:

-Awaled.Grade 9
-Ayan.Grade 10
-Absyir(cute guy) grade 10

and theres me.so scaared.
ZOMGOAT<3




pls pls pls pls pls pls pls pls pls pls pls praaaaaay for me.


P.S.
I LOVE ELOISE!!
kissy kiss.
:D

saturday was saturday i woke up at 12 like usual. then log ing the net until i cant remember when then i bath at about 3pm. mama and shiham came back from the library adn bough few books and video. mama borrowed frecky friday, eight below and elouise for chirstmas.

ZOMGOAT!


im soo crazy for eloise!! grrr. i so so so love that girl. she make me go hiigh! i loove love love her.
the movie was so cool. and make me fly way way hiigh. well the movie was my type of movie. i kept watching the movie over and over again. at niight i did my French homework and log in the internet agaiin.
currentnly talking to chris.

lately i have been thinking.(since i watched elouise)
thinking bot my ideal guy. :D
he must be:
- charminng,
-funny,
-enjoy being with kids.
-willl always make me smile.
-a bit sensetive
-he knows went to get serious.
- a lil romantic.
-enjoy walking by the beach.
-and love to dance around and be silly.
- and act.

the dream guy is someone like bill from eloise. but people know theres no such thing as the "dream guy". these are all fAiry tales.
well i sound like i might as well get a clown but the guy i want is nt a clown type.

read yanys blog.
dear no worries we've been thinking the same way too. but imagine ur in my spot. i got seperated alreaady but u guys have always been behide my shoulder you guys were there when i need you. all of u were like my shadow and protectors and ppl go made me stand and pick me up when im down.

no comments.
my week is so weird. the girls are metally ill. and, they areeee like ergh!
no comments.
and im getting close with the guys.
and getting to knw ppl.

Somehow i enjoyed today. i came into the class and got chased by anoosh. HAH! too bad. im too quick. u cant even catch me. XP then later during lunch was the best. i enjoyed playing at the monkey bars, scanning the basketball court and commenting *winkswinks* then talked to people. we went inside for friday prayers and things happen so fast. i was lucky to have anoosh and maryan at school to enjoy my school days, thanks guys. later then went inside class and basically study. during gym was like =.=" i tried to stay away from it and keep the game going on. golly its just a game, a zahra u rock girl. the coolest player on the court. but khadijah u double rock i so love when she tried to fight back to fatimah. nyahha. it was sooooo dramatic and funny. but still =.="
school was over and i caught u both staring at her and smiling plus a lil laughing. seriiously dont try to make it obvious cos its completely obvious! boyss. and seriously what is yr prblm. that was practically random of u guys jus calling me out and strt talking to me and insulting my friend. get a life.

aniwaes.
i have already accpted huggies.
so come hug me people.
:D

aand i was hopiing for the best days of my life in school.
and to you.
be my friend lets talk and get to know each other, pls.

i knew he was going to come. he was the new guy in school. and i hate it! i hate when u came here. ure a snob man. plus u think ur all that. ibraheem maybe riight i dislike u going to this school. i thought u were going to merivale high. hrmph. i hope somthing happenn that made me change my mind. my friends have beenn talking bot u and the ilyas guy. and i just reliased that iylas ditch emran for you. ur bad bad bad! >:( why are you here agaiin? i was so happy with my school without you. but i was hoping something might happen that made me enjoy that u came to this school. ine thinng i was hoping is that u will change. im just talking as a friend and nothing more. my friends in OIS have been talking bot you and ilyas gosh and how annoying it is. ij ust hope they will stop and keep quiet bot it. and i so know ure secret dude. hah! shaheed told me. but he made me swear nt to tell anyone. cant believe it. but it made me laugh and smile. hah. way to go. =.="

okaay so todaay there were too much of him and the ilyas guy around. the girls kept talking bot them. frustrating yes. i sound les but im still interested in boys ok. theres limit to evrything. golly. i didd noe that my friends were that slow. i kept on ditching them and i guess there were okay bot that. next time walk faster. move quicker. >:(

i just hope that something good will happen tomorow. theres tos of things i want to make it happen in school and outside school. mayb the luckiest day of my life. =.="
ok i just dont have any topic to talk about.

and happy fasting evryone.
RAMADAN kareem.

i like school today. mariam and anoosh were talking bot crappy stuffs. very very very personal stuff. and mariam could t stop making those jokes. all our food or drink came out from our mouth. its like PLEWFF. nyahaha. then gym was awsome. i so miss netball much much. then riindu kak2 netball. sob sob. later then we were like got sstoped and the gym tchr made us do these weird things. during ramadan we are going to have gym guess wat?! its a must! its in the curriculum. we have to sabar. then came dwnstair with khadijah,mariam and anoosh. thanks aisha for ditching me.

but this time its diffrent. how come? cos usually im with someone like with the sisters and with sagal or dana and sara. but this time its like im following them. its jus dun feel like me. i felt left out. sob sob. doa that wont happen agaiin pls.

shaheed got really really really hungry as he was fasting and guees wat i wasnt hah! XP later then at the bus i saw this guy. it was my second time we met on the same bus. well lets say he looks like mad and a lil like haris from dunman. :DD hehehehhe. i accidentally took the wrong bus but at least it stop in front of our house so shaheed would nt have to walk much. but it wasnt that confortable. so no more taking bus 172.
i got back home and mama asked me this

mama:" shazaa which school do u want to go to? aljunied or irsyad"
me: " why? whats wrong?"
mama:" no if u go to aljunied u will have to take an exam and wait for result. if u go to irsyad u dont need to take exams"

:OOOO
i like both schools. i dun wan to trake the exams but i dun really mind but wat happen if i didd make it. what happen if i had to go to sec 2. if i go to irsyad im automatically sec 3.im nt that confident that i will be able to pass it. thats why im askig ur guys opinion. i need help to pass this exam to get to sec 3 and be with the ssthrd. i dun mind going to irsyad cos i have rusda,farah,malsa,aiin and the othr ppl who knows me( as if XP ) but its a hard decision and time s runninng out fast.
my opinion: if i go to aljunied take my exams and if didd make it irsyad is my choice but i dont kow if that is possible. do guys have any ideas or comments? i need to hear from u ppl ASAP! pls help me out.. if the sisters are willing to teach me evrything u guess have learn and i might pass the exam i can see u guys. or else its irsyad it is.


People who were missed
-sisters.
-rusda.
-nenek and atok
-malsa.
-farah.
-haris.
-sagal.
-sarah.
-dana.
-habbo people,etc: alex,ash,ratch,demon,nicole,shay,bla bla bla.(XP AIDS hearts;)

i thinks that all that are in my mind.
& i can nspeck french haha. lame that jus came out.

my boring life.

so the weeked was awsome. there nt much homework and it was so free.
but i got tired with these nagging bout me being in the computer too much. but im telling u im nt.
i jus dnt get my parents. its like urgh, im strting to ignore and try nt to talk back.

on friday night talked to crappy ammar. haha man u rock ar. tell me whoese ur victim orites. i want to knw. ad farah thanks for forciing me to go to the washroom klw tk. haha

sunday:
mom told me to got to his bbq.
comments:
bored!
met new girl.(forgot her name but noe her brother)
then met tchr sarah and nusaibah.
brother mohammad ditched us there so we went back home wit tr.sarah and brother omar.
We had ice cream.
it was yummylicious.
aisha called me ad got confuse as she wasnt sure if that was me,
why?
cos she said my voice has change much more like a girl.
>:o
then i reliase that i have been usong alot of english then malay.
nightmare nightmare nightmare.
too much influences.


to my sisters:
help me survive school gimme tips
pray for me. that i will have a wonderful school days.
:D

okay.
so 2nd say wasn't that bad.
i really to like the tchrs, the class was so funny. cos the tchrs try to make us stay alive. and not dead and turn to zombie. i did alot of laughing during islamic studies. the guy tchr really made me smile and enjoy school. may Allah shower him with rezki and bless him. then lunch we were blanked. until we met mariam,aisyah and a i forgot her name. then she brought us to other grade 9 girls that we hang together. then solat zohor which i then reliased i lost the phone!
panic panic panic ar!
the whole 2hr(2 period) cant focus much nk laugh pon tk btol. then told admin and asked she told me to try go search at the feild. guess wat i found it. thank u Allah. was gald gald gald.
then me and shaheed decided to go to McDonald. haha klkar ar. ppl looked at us funny. imagine la walking sitting and hanging beside a guy. ppl think lain mcm mane. i try stay normal. hahabut its fun tho going back with shaheed. so reach home and did homework.
thats all.

my timetable is like 5 period nt including lunch and prayers. 1 period= 1 hr, mcm fun gitu.
XP
anoiwaes talked to dad jus now talked bot stuff ikit.

Mohammad Hannan Hassan says:
anyway, tadi I went to McGill's computer store
Mohammad Hannan Hassan says:
I saw iMAC...desktop
09. Shaza Is Captivity, says:
oooo.
09. Shaza Is Captivity, says:
sweet
Mohammad Hannan Hassan says:
he...he..... u know what?? I was thinking of you and the kids
Mohammad Hannan Hassan says:
I said to myself...probably I want to set targets for u
Mohammad Hannan Hassan says:
if you made certain achievements, like As in all ur subjects
Mohammad Hannan Hassan says:
probably can get one iMAC for you...
Mohammad Hannan Hassan says:
:)
Mohammad Hannan Hassan says:
:)
09. Shaza Is Captivity, says:
ooooooo.

yay!! haha.=.=

to the sisters.
BLOG UP LAR!
UPDATE!!!!!!!!!
syg syg syg you all.
i wish u guys were in my school with me.
hearts;hearts;

let me tell everyone this,


I HATE MY SCHOOL!
ITS LIKE A REHAB!
the school is like so confusing,
plus there is no bells.
and its dark.
the desk are so tinyn and nt enough.
AND they said 35 something like that is a big nnumber of pupil.
hello!! my old school got like 40 ppl ok jer.
AND the girls are so snobby and eek! i dont want to talk.
i want to go to a public school.
help me!!

jus cant wait till dec. best ar.!
i hope things change. i hope the school is okay.
pls doakn for me my fellow beloved AssyBowls.
URRRGGH.

the only thing i like is also that i take the transportation
going to school. no more like kid kid.
i like abraar better then this school.
and geeky shaheed agrees.



help me pls.
heart; heart;

I WANT MY SUMMER BACK!!
SCHOOL IS REOPENING!
NOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!

I HATE HATE HATE SCHOOL!
I WANT TO GO TO BELL WITH DANA!
URRGGHH.,


hope there cute dudes tehre.
XP
hearts;