BLEH, i dont know my days these days. I pretty got over myself about me changing, the week after raya changed. i was me agaiin wild thing happen every single day. tuesday was raining ang i was wet the whole day. That was the day i liked myself. no more quiet me, later then things happen. Geography class was superb. not the studies but the surrounding. LOUD music turned on without teacher somehow noticing, which is very funny. Fatimah K. wanted to throw chalk at the boys so they want to do their stuff( nobody listens during geography class they only do their OWN stuff) accidentally hit shaheed( where he thought it was me) then me ad Anoosh dare her to throw a paper ball at him and i dare Asha to throw a paper ball at Ilyas. it was practically funny that all of us were laughing our head of till we all go hungry. even the guys were laughing. Flirting much. i just like making shaheed mad. took his kofi (that he always use which made his hair FLAT) and he actually complained to our computer class tchr( which is our homeroom tchr) but he actual took my side. People thinks he has a cute hair. well maybe. then i cant remember what else. cos i forgot to take trck of my days, SORRY.

ouhk yeah i have made my decision between irsyad ad aljunied. my choice will be irsyad where i will be going to sec3. then the next year since automatically aljunied kn( all sec must go there) so there i will go sec4, i picked irsyad cos i dun need to take my exams. so easy for me. i might be leaving Canada on the eve of christmas i hope i dont miss boxing day.
ouhk yeah mama got her Master at NTU.

to my lovers,
good lucks with ur exams.
hope u all did well.
see u next tiime.

today i was a little less evilstic. i was evil the whole month in the high school. so today geography test was easy. i was so lucky i actually pay attention in class the day before. hah for the firsts time in geography i pay attention. during lunch was hilarious. too many spitting out food. and after prayer, i didd do anything and was just talking to this grade 11 girl and all of the sudden

gr11: " whats ur name?"
me :"shazaa why?"
gr11: " wow u look innocent and decent, but ure actually evil. thats good"
anoosh: " she is evil, she so mean":
me: "thank you"

pfft.
haha.

STOMP THE YARD was awsome. comments comment comments on the dudes. -melts-
enough say.
tomrow will be field trip with the grade 4, im ditching school. woot.

urgh i hate school so mucho, i cant waiit to get my butt at singapore. lets make my day simple.
i hate school it was boring. im not me. im super mean. and i meant it.[i have been reading the convo i had with maya long time ago and that was the me i like].

fatimah kept on making me laugh and i have been ignore so much. im tired of it. had my maths test(ZOMGOAT EASY BUT CARELESS) and french quiz(easy).

during native, the teacher gave us our letters and journal. all writing stuff and she marked it. and i beat mr.best writer(yanny's extra hawt guy,shaheed) and my letter will be proberly be send to the First Nation students. YAY. well that made my day cause my writing was awesome[according to mom ad teacher] mama said my grammer /ennglish improved and my writing was good. shes impressed. shaheed got jealous.LOL♥ my journal was about my friends. and was dedicated.
-winks-

i read this convo i had with maya♥ bot wan then other stuffs. aww i miss that moment. i am missing everything i love. talked to syimir asking him to check my assignment and do this and that. hah. poor guy. THANKS SYIMIR♥.

the first day of raya, that night we went to cik harims hse,inside the car i felt asleep and my parents recorded my snoring. wthell. i adit i was super tired but embrasssing like omg. cos hairs was inside the car but he was sleeping too.okay kt sane eat lots and there was this brownie. ZOMGOAT. so moise. then malam take pics, the kids main buaga api. when back home.

2nd day evryone strted coing to cik rahidahs hse cos she had an open house. the only thing i did was walk around the big house,eat,watch dvd(melayu),and talk. i walk here and there. cik piah gave me the inai. omg. she should not have i have been playing with it and look what happen. RAWWR. bad moi. later than i got duit raya and when upstairs(away from the people) and internet. the sleep.

had to go back to ottawa. so spend few times then we went to a house eat agaiin.(im going to gain lot of weigh soon) then sleep reach home. did geo. and eat pizza and eatch tv and sleep.

school. bored. hhate it.
thats the words to describe school.

yanny♥ i dun get your comment.

hah

my face on 1st of Raya,

We left ottawa at 1150 then stop at kingston for zohor prayers. on the way to kingston i fell asleep while trying to fix the cd for lagu hari raya. gawd when i woke up my neck hurts alot! later than didd fall asleep until i reached toronto.

as soon as i reach kt cik taib's apartment i got high. well shaheed made me go high. had iftar at cik taib's hse.the food was so yummy. then kept on eating untill i fall.then the takbir, which all of the sudden remind me of nenek. mostly ppl cry cos they teringat nenek. later talked to kak syafiqah then when inside room and chat with the other girls cos the other room people dah strt to get emotional. i wasnt that talk-ish.then when back home and fell asleep. that was fast.

cik rahidah got a cat name shaza. lawl. okay i lost my mood of raya all of the sudden the first day of raya wasnt that great. i want to go back to Singapore so badly. but i hope raya here will be great.
i wannt to cry badly but i cant, i miss all my family members and friends.


i reliased that the slengerhoods are the people who make me enjoy myself as we talk like non stop. but with people he i jus smile and nod. me and ain usually crack stupid jokes, she teaches me[alot] how to crack stupid lame jokes. and make people laugh and smile. how i miss that gummybear alot. i cant waiit till i get my assy kat singpore.pray for me people. 2 more months and im back where i belong.
-sob-

okay im getting emotionally emotional.
I MISSED YOU.

[MSG TO ALL PEOPLE WHO KNOW ME.]

Selamat hari raya.
maaf zahir batin.
you guys are lucky butts that u can enjoy raya there.
so USE IT WISELY.
i noe u have exams and all, but still.
Shaza nak minta maaf klw ade salah silap.
terkasar bahase ker.
terkua hurt your feelings ker.
ape ape yg laen yg negative.
maaf kn la ehk.
HALAL KAN MAKAN MINOM.
[klw tk mkn pon minom, klw tk minom ker mkan la]
so maaf kan la ehk.



ehk aku giler Syaiful Apek♥
&& Aku adore abg sedareku.

THE ENDS♥

after talking to syimir and maya things changed a little bit. their encouragment made me smile wat better. i bough my phone with the good camera and brough it to school. during class took few pics and also during lunch i took few pic which completely qite change my day. and also thanks to the grade 7. you guys rock my uniform, xpecially u sumayah. then gym was rocking i loved the football game.
can we play again pls.


Wednesday was no school talk to maya and few ppl and left to abraar to send the little kids. then later had to volunteers. so sory maya♥. from SK to grade 4. i wanted to go to grade 8 but tchr anisa got me first. later then went to JK and when to gym to help tchr anisa mark. i notice alot of ppl knnw my name. nyahaha. wow im famous. muahaha.

thusday send them to school didd want to go volunteer and went shopping with mama we bough food mostly. waiting for baba then we will buy stuff. mama told me to buy a blouse so i could wear for raya. no way im wearing skirt. grrr. i expect kurong or gown sumtin like that. no skirt. tomorrow might go shopping for kasut raya. raya will be at toronto with the singporean. woohoo.



THE END♥

tell me a story.

Im nt disappointed, no one broke my heart. Nobody died, i lost no one. nothing bad happen but why am i like this? Im not the jolly me. im not the high me. im not the outgoing me. evrything had changed. i dont smile like i use to. my highness wasnt like the highness im usually with ain. im not loud. i cant speck up anymore. ask maya when the time i talk to her. im not me. i dun get all high and all im nt xcited and all the only thing was that i ans her question with few words. its jus simple. boring.un-me.

okay so today was awkward. i came to school oh so quiet. not me right? kept quiet and laugh a little bit. asha and some other girls made my day. but usually asha. my tic tac toe buddy. when we're bored there u go tic tac toe and insults will come out. nyahaha. then later sped my lunch at the swing with anoosh about stuffs then sharif came and we had a liittle convo. aoosh was much of a flirt. hahaha. then hang with the other girls and the grade 8 girls ad guys had this " war" pathetic mucho. the grade 9 girls were like "go flirt somewhere else." then i had this headache bcos of the sunlight. then gym played soccer. ;D u all shud see my face. total embarrassment. it was so red.ouhk yah i got hit on a face. and i stink alot. XP then got reaally tired. reached home and thats all. log in the net. talked to syimir about stuff. he's like my everything i need. hes always there when i need help. then later the sisters will support me.he reliased too that i had change i wasnt the jolly me. the xciting me.. im not outgoing anymore. but like he said " kep on smiling dont focus on the sad part" he made me promise that when he see me hw wansn me smiling. woooah buddy there. well that made me smile. but not mile smile. im nt that happy ever since im in high school. watch hannah montana then prepared for buka. and study for french test and did my science.

wednesday is NO SCHOOL TILL NEXT NEXT TUESDAY.
SWEEEEET.
;D

pray for me.

so friday was quite awesome,but it will be better if sagal and dana went with us they cant cos they the principal said they cant grrr. so i tot i was late and for god sake i was wearing a skirt and running. ZOMGOAT how annoying it was. then went i reach school there was nt much ppl which made me not late. ;D so then later talk to people until nouran came and hang out with her, golly how i miss that girl. we walk here and there then we ran away from sarah hahaha it was soo funny. then i had to do work cos i volunteering. then things happen with me and him. XP anoosh called and she said " you guys are like best friend" haha well hope we could be best friend. the food during iftar was so yummy. soon at night nouran got high and i got half sleepy. i was the first persoon to sleep. the sleep was so peeaceful. the morning was like that. after that we wtch meet the robinson and listen to music and all. astagfirullah imagine that during ramandan. i planed to go back to sleep but plans changed. packed up went to the gym and played basketball. and went back home sleep until 2 and internet.

sunday was boring.
tomorow school. holiday coming up.
EID im going to toronto. yay mucho. can raya with the singaporean, XP

ps
i reliased i have changed alot. im nt me anymore and im not happy!!
RAAWWWR.

so yesterday nothing much really happen xcpt that i found out that the girls are crappy. it was xtreme lame. a girl backstab on of my friend or buds. which is bad. during ramadhan lagi. golly. then had a convo with AM and asha got mad. and i felt used im tired of beingn the 3rd person and xcuse moi. IM NOT AN OWL. im so happy that im mean and evil nyahahah. im lovin it. talk to sagal and nouran yesterday too. aww loving them mucho. i miss them so mucho. but we're goiing to meet them on friday at school cos there is this sleepover thingy. yay! they mad me laugh so much. well i got high there thats why. hahahha i gave them ideas to make me laugh.

TODAY,
hah. i dunno mucho happen. and so lazy to tell. went back home with shaheed and aisha. ibraheem walked with us till the end of the roaad. lawl dude made me smile somehow. and AM acuse me for copycatting his cell i beg ur pardon MR. i have no intension to copy u cos the phone is soooo not my dreamy phone nayahahah. back home talked to nouran and sagal and AM. then talked to sarah. THE HIGH SCHOOL CORRUPTED HER. :D bro. M ur scaring me and i will bring my science textbook. he said that i have prblm that he heard bot. ZOMGOAT. scared scared scared. shifa said that Abraar is nt like theAbraar cos there no more me and school is boring nayahhaha. i feel so loved. :D im so popular at school haha for god sake the school is so small evryone knw evryone. hahahahhahahahahaha. okaaay i thinnk thaaats all.


THE END.

xcited for tomrow. goiiing to meet my lovly fren
THEN CAN CAMWHORE NAYAHAHHAHAHAHA.
BEST!!

love you all.
xpeciaaly YOU SLENGERHOOD. ;D
&& specially AIN ♥
xoxo

ZOMGOAT.



today was so funny. i kept on laughing every single moment. these girls kept on talking bot the boys and making fun of them and all. hah! the boys helped them to make me laugh too. lawls. it was too fuuny. boys like zak,ibrahim, the GP(gay pervs: AM[ahmad]&ilyas)and yeaah. girs like anoosh,fatimah(Q),fatimah(K),rahmah,mariam and asha. poor asha man. i nooe that dude is so sicky sicky minded. no worries im going straight to his face and say "PERV" and tell him to back off. golly aisha u make asha's life even worse. why did u do that/ but things happen evrytone knows.


LAWLS.

okay my darlings. i had my sectary speech jus nw. zomgoat i nvr in my life got stunned like that i was so shaking big tiime and u can hear it by my voice. i have no idea what happen. that was soo un me.
well i survived. i nvr knew these seniors we so cool. they were awsoome. i need voes i strted late i didd knw i was able to run. RAWWR. pls pray for me sisters. i so want it badly. voing day is tomrow wed and thrs. many many days so pray for me before u brck ur fast cos thats when Allah wont reject the prayers. pls pls pls. theen im telling u my oppenent(guy) he is soooo cute .XP okaay shaza back to the topic.
i came ou frm the gym then this sis(i love her soo much) strt hugging me frm he back and said that was a greaat speech and i was soo cute (i was so short) and kept hugging witout letting o i jus smile and hug her back. i huged few ppl today. then the a candidate of VP was like u did greaat. and hugged me i cant remeber wat she said else and shes in grade 11. i was like woaaah. yay me. then i shook my oppenents hand and told her her speech was greeeat. but yeeaah. i hope i wiin man.. grr. got to go some campaigning thingy wish me best of lucck. wat else to say. i got many to say. RAWWR. but i gtg.ouh yeeaah last period played soccer.(yayness) and went back home hugged my 2 frens and ibraheem catch up with us and walk woth us until the end of the road. lawl. okay i walk with a guy to the end of the road with shaheed. from the back it look so wrong. haha. but i got to admit ibraheem is liek one of my close fren too. we talk bot stuff a fast argument and yeeeah. weiird dude tho. likes to dream bo stuff. he need a life. ouhk yaa i reliaes he had freckles on his nose. lawl afer 1 yrs i jus notice it last week. >:D

MY OPPONENT:

-Awaled.Grade 9
-Ayan.Grade 10
-Absyir(cute guy) grade 10

and theres me.so scaared.
ZOMGOAT<3




pls pls pls pls pls pls pls pls pls pls pls praaaaaay for me.


P.S.
I LOVE ELOISE!!
kissy kiss.
:D

saturday was saturday i woke up at 12 like usual. then log ing the net until i cant remember when then i bath at about 3pm. mama and shiham came back from the library adn bough few books and video. mama borrowed frecky friday, eight below and elouise for chirstmas.

ZOMGOAT!


im soo crazy for eloise!! grrr. i so so so love that girl. she make me go hiigh! i loove love love her.
the movie was so cool. and make me fly way way hiigh. well the movie was my type of movie. i kept watching the movie over and over again. at niight i did my French homework and log in the internet agaiin.
currentnly talking to chris.

lately i have been thinking.(since i watched elouise)
thinking bot my ideal guy. :D
he must be:
- charminng,
-funny,
-enjoy being with kids.
-willl always make me smile.
-a bit sensetive
-he knows went to get serious.
- a lil romantic.
-enjoy walking by the beach.
-and love to dance around and be silly.
- and act.

the dream guy is someone like bill from eloise. but people know theres no such thing as the "dream guy". these are all fAiry tales.
well i sound like i might as well get a clown but the guy i want is nt a clown type.

read yanys blog.
dear no worries we've been thinking the same way too. but imagine ur in my spot. i got seperated alreaady but u guys have always been behide my shoulder you guys were there when i need you. all of u were like my shadow and protectors and ppl go made me stand and pick me up when im down.

no comments.
my week is so weird. the girls are metally ill. and, they areeee like ergh!
no comments.
and im getting close with the guys.
and getting to knw ppl.

Somehow i enjoyed today. i came into the class and got chased by anoosh. HAH! too bad. im too quick. u cant even catch me. XP then later during lunch was the best. i enjoyed playing at the monkey bars, scanning the basketball court and commenting *winkswinks* then talked to people. we went inside for friday prayers and things happen so fast. i was lucky to have anoosh and maryan at school to enjoy my school days, thanks guys. later then went inside class and basically study. during gym was like =.=" i tried to stay away from it and keep the game going on. golly its just a game, a zahra u rock girl. the coolest player on the court. but khadijah u double rock i so love when she tried to fight back to fatimah. nyahha. it was sooooo dramatic and funny. but still =.="
school was over and i caught u both staring at her and smiling plus a lil laughing. seriiously dont try to make it obvious cos its completely obvious! boyss. and seriously what is yr prblm. that was practically random of u guys jus calling me out and strt talking to me and insulting my friend. get a life.

aniwaes.
i have already accpted huggies.
so come hug me people.
:D

aand i was hopiing for the best days of my life in school.
and to you.
be my friend lets talk and get to know each other, pls.

i knew he was going to come. he was the new guy in school. and i hate it! i hate when u came here. ure a snob man. plus u think ur all that. ibraheem maybe riight i dislike u going to this school. i thought u were going to merivale high. hrmph. i hope somthing happenn that made me change my mind. my friends have beenn talking bot u and the ilyas guy. and i just reliased that iylas ditch emran for you. ur bad bad bad! >:( why are you here agaiin? i was so happy with my school without you. but i was hoping something might happen that made me enjoy that u came to this school. ine thinng i was hoping is that u will change. im just talking as a friend and nothing more. my friends in OIS have been talking bot you and ilyas gosh and how annoying it is. ij ust hope they will stop and keep quiet bot it. and i so know ure secret dude. hah! shaheed told me. but he made me swear nt to tell anyone. cant believe it. but it made me laugh and smile. hah. way to go. =.="

okaay so todaay there were too much of him and the ilyas guy around. the girls kept talking bot them. frustrating yes. i sound les but im still interested in boys ok. theres limit to evrything. golly. i didd noe that my friends were that slow. i kept on ditching them and i guess there were okay bot that. next time walk faster. move quicker. >:(

i just hope that something good will happen tomorow. theres tos of things i want to make it happen in school and outside school. mayb the luckiest day of my life. =.="
ok i just dont have any topic to talk about.

and happy fasting evryone.
RAMADAN kareem.

i like school today. mariam and anoosh were talking bot crappy stuffs. very very very personal stuff. and mariam could t stop making those jokes. all our food or drink came out from our mouth. its like PLEWFF. nyahaha. then gym was awsome. i so miss netball much much. then riindu kak2 netball. sob sob. later then we were like got sstoped and the gym tchr made us do these weird things. during ramadan we are going to have gym guess wat?! its a must! its in the curriculum. we have to sabar. then came dwnstair with khadijah,mariam and anoosh. thanks aisha for ditching me.

but this time its diffrent. how come? cos usually im with someone like with the sisters and with sagal or dana and sara. but this time its like im following them. its jus dun feel like me. i felt left out. sob sob. doa that wont happen agaiin pls.

shaheed got really really really hungry as he was fasting and guees wat i wasnt hah! XP later then at the bus i saw this guy. it was my second time we met on the same bus. well lets say he looks like mad and a lil like haris from dunman. :DD hehehehhe. i accidentally took the wrong bus but at least it stop in front of our house so shaheed would nt have to walk much. but it wasnt that confortable. so no more taking bus 172.
i got back home and mama asked me this

mama:" shazaa which school do u want to go to? aljunied or irsyad"
me: " why? whats wrong?"
mama:" no if u go to aljunied u will have to take an exam and wait for result. if u go to irsyad u dont need to take exams"

:OOOO
i like both schools. i dun wan to trake the exams but i dun really mind but wat happen if i didd make it. what happen if i had to go to sec 2. if i go to irsyad im automatically sec 3.im nt that confident that i will be able to pass it. thats why im askig ur guys opinion. i need help to pass this exam to get to sec 3 and be with the ssthrd. i dun mind going to irsyad cos i have rusda,farah,malsa,aiin and the othr ppl who knows me( as if XP ) but its a hard decision and time s runninng out fast.
my opinion: if i go to aljunied take my exams and if didd make it irsyad is my choice but i dont kow if that is possible. do guys have any ideas or comments? i need to hear from u ppl ASAP! pls help me out.. if the sisters are willing to teach me evrything u guess have learn and i might pass the exam i can see u guys. or else its irsyad it is.


People who were missed
-sisters.
-rusda.
-nenek and atok
-malsa.
-farah.
-haris.
-sagal.
-sarah.
-dana.
-habbo people,etc: alex,ash,ratch,demon,nicole,shay,bla bla bla.(XP AIDS hearts;)

i thinks that all that are in my mind.
& i can nspeck french haha. lame that jus came out.

my boring life.

so the weeked was awsome. there nt much homework and it was so free.
but i got tired with these nagging bout me being in the computer too much. but im telling u im nt.
i jus dnt get my parents. its like urgh, im strting to ignore and try nt to talk back.

on friday night talked to crappy ammar. haha man u rock ar. tell me whoese ur victim orites. i want to knw. ad farah thanks for forciing me to go to the washroom klw tk. haha

sunday:
mom told me to got to his bbq.
comments:
bored!
met new girl.(forgot her name but noe her brother)
then met tchr sarah and nusaibah.
brother mohammad ditched us there so we went back home wit tr.sarah and brother omar.
We had ice cream.
it was yummylicious.
aisha called me ad got confuse as she wasnt sure if that was me,
why?
cos she said my voice has change much more like a girl.
>:o
then i reliase that i have been usong alot of english then malay.
nightmare nightmare nightmare.
too much influences.


to my sisters:
help me survive school gimme tips
pray for me. that i will have a wonderful school days.
:D

okay.
so 2nd say wasn't that bad.
i really to like the tchrs, the class was so funny. cos the tchrs try to make us stay alive. and not dead and turn to zombie. i did alot of laughing during islamic studies. the guy tchr really made me smile and enjoy school. may Allah shower him with rezki and bless him. then lunch we were blanked. until we met mariam,aisyah and a i forgot her name. then she brought us to other grade 9 girls that we hang together. then solat zohor which i then reliased i lost the phone!
panic panic panic ar!
the whole 2hr(2 period) cant focus much nk laugh pon tk btol. then told admin and asked she told me to try go search at the feild. guess wat i found it. thank u Allah. was gald gald gald.
then me and shaheed decided to go to McDonald. haha klkar ar. ppl looked at us funny. imagine la walking sitting and hanging beside a guy. ppl think lain mcm mane. i try stay normal. hahabut its fun tho going back with shaheed. so reach home and did homework.
thats all.

my timetable is like 5 period nt including lunch and prayers. 1 period= 1 hr, mcm fun gitu.
XP
anoiwaes talked to dad jus now talked bot stuff ikit.

Mohammad Hannan Hassan says:
anyway, tadi I went to McGill's computer store
Mohammad Hannan Hassan says:
I saw iMAC...desktop
09. Shaza Is Captivity, says:
oooo.
09. Shaza Is Captivity, says:
sweet
Mohammad Hannan Hassan says:
he...he..... u know what?? I was thinking of you and the kids
Mohammad Hannan Hassan says:
I said to myself...probably I want to set targets for u
Mohammad Hannan Hassan says:
if you made certain achievements, like As in all ur subjects
Mohammad Hannan Hassan says:
probably can get one iMAC for you...
Mohammad Hannan Hassan says:
:)
Mohammad Hannan Hassan says:
:)
09. Shaza Is Captivity, says:
ooooooo.

yay!! haha.=.=

to the sisters.
BLOG UP LAR!
UPDATE!!!!!!!!!
syg syg syg you all.
i wish u guys were in my school with me.
hearts;hearts;

let me tell everyone this,


I HATE MY SCHOOL!
ITS LIKE A REHAB!
the school is like so confusing,
plus there is no bells.
and its dark.
the desk are so tinyn and nt enough.
AND they said 35 something like that is a big nnumber of pupil.
hello!! my old school got like 40 ppl ok jer.
AND the girls are so snobby and eek! i dont want to talk.
i want to go to a public school.
help me!!

jus cant wait till dec. best ar.!
i hope things change. i hope the school is okay.
pls doakn for me my fellow beloved AssyBowls.
URRRGGH.

the only thing i like is also that i take the transportation
going to school. no more like kid kid.
i like abraar better then this school.
and geeky shaheed agrees.



help me pls.
heart; heart;

I WANT MY SUMMER BACK!!
SCHOOL IS REOPENING!
NOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!

I HATE HATE HATE SCHOOL!
I WANT TO GO TO BELL WITH DANA!
URRGGHH.,


hope there cute dudes tehre.
XP
hearts;