sense to make

Things havent been making sense lately,

It all started with: Me.

I'm ignorant. I couldnt careless. I am like a heartless breed with no soul and heart.

Am I happy? I am grateful that I'm alive. But this heartless breed with no soul and heart is turning me upside down.

I'm glad I am closest to the warmest and friendliest person in school.

If it wasnt for her, I'm as cold as ice. She knows the potential in me and she knows the icy part of me. But her equation right now for me, not much of a result.

On the other hand, I got another person who is always hurt by my cold. I maybe be a mess but I dont like to see other caught up in my mess. I'm a pusher. I push. I do wish you wont get tangled, cause I can't bare to see you get hurt. I no longer want to be the reason you're always upset cause lately, I can no longer make you happy. When was the last time I made you smile.

I have to learn how to be kind. I have to learn to be warm. I feel like I dont know how to care, I dont know how to comfort. I dont know how to give you a gentle touch to serene you. For others, its as simply as abc, but for me its a large Einstein equation for me.

Hi.

I'm ridiculous. I'm complicated. I'm selfish.