pokeeeemon!

Open house at Dayah's was actually awesome but due to the "shazaaaaa! faster come home" I didnt get to enjoy it. I was enjoying my time hanging out with them at dayah's with additional guest appearance ena and aqilah ft. jannah and syafiqah and mais. Dayah's bros were fun to mess around with and he kept smiling and laughing. pfft! boring you. :DD

I took my very own sweet time and BAM! I saw the cousins and aunts and uncle. Headed home with HJN too. She was already like part of our family. The cousins crashed inside zhe room cause it was hot outside and HJN look like one of us. Everyone knew her already. Shaheed's entire classmates came over and I ran to nenek leha's place cause it was smelly. Then again, I saw Aum and Razi. Macam dah lame tk jumpe korang, wait memnag lame pon.

Hafizhah, Farah, Khody and Seri came over and We called Lyna's cousin! :DD Mama literally became our spokeperson and it was funnneh! Joined them and headed to Hasanah's. On the way home, I saw syaraaaf and the bus driver was yelling.

I sayang aminah dulu baru shifa.
sebab aminah dah letak gambar shifa blom. nak check out the pictures? :DD

i miss my bestfriends.

back form qiyaaaaaam was burpy.
it was bumpy and tiring. I didnt plan on dozing off before meeting syuhadah, afiqah, shifa, byda, aisyah, sabariah and mino. But I did at the end! I was late and took 20min and rushed off. Phewwww!

So I award...
Best house: Dhania's
Best kuih: Syuhadah's
Best Cable tv: Aisyah's
Best serving: Aminah's
Best model: Sabariaaaah!

All of us were hyped up an we were paired up as well. Surprisingly all of us had partners. Syu and I were wearing bright color, byda and fiq had browns on them, shifa and mino got purple and white upside down and the two top models, sabariah and aisyah had black and gray. COUPLE PHOTOSHOOT LAH! I waaaaant pictuuures eheheheh! fastfastfast tau. :DD

Shifa and I left earlier and we were talking about our future that we took the wrong train. It was hilarious and we saw khaulaah. Reached home and went out again with the family. Roasted tired. I'm hungry and I want to get away from Singapore. Can?

tears you cant get away.

HA HA HA HARI RAYA YA YA YA YA is like BAAAAACK!
bom out with the girlfriends and hit everywhere. Somehow I felt relief and gald.
one by one the joy of laughter and sarcasms cheers me up after these few incidents.
Shifa's little cammie was being a source of joyness and all of us were excited.
accepted few kechiiings and bam we headed school for Qiyam. :DD

I felt uneasy and Ain had the same feeling too after we were done our dinner. I decided to give mama a text and she told me something. Woah! was I mad. I seriously did to beat that kid up. !#$%@#$ too much ah kau! Reach school feel all paisey and hey, we caught up with the guys who were in jubah (all of them) and they were from geylang. So, we headed in together as everyone gave us the glares. Ezzati cried twice yesterday and the second cry made me joined in. We cried infront of the teachers' office feeling guilty and wishes to do something. Dear Classmates, lets give ustaz a suprise or maybe an appreciation gift. Afterall, he has done a lot for us.

"campfire" was great. hearing stories and random incidents we had tons of talk and wont bother to shut up until two. The teachers gave up and joined our room. By then, everyone settle down and went to bed. HAH! MCD for breakfast an waiting for the pictures from Shifa.

dear sisters,
i know there's the hangat issue going on and i wish to stop it cause i feel uneasy. i miss all of you but i miss the all of us when we were in secondary one. you people changed so much and hey, people change so i dont really mind. but when we're drifting apart and everyone know so its just sad to see it. I honestly do know not what else to do. im sorry i miss the gathering and im sorry im not joining you people today.

dear kak nisa,
i am lousy. i am superb lousy. i cant handle the team well. sometimes i get mad of myself cause i run away from the responsibility you trusted to me. im sorry i didnt went for training yesterday due to the messy schedule.

rinduuu ahh

I woke up this morning
and "EH? No STE? awwwwww"

Shira misses me already. And I miss my both side sitting people. Sebab pusing kanan dpt drool skjp pusing kiri dpt ketawe sekejap. Punyeee lah best! :DD

&& I had random imaginations just now. You know, something like dreaming but during the day. So it was day dreaming. HJN was talking about migrating so I went along with. This morning, this dream came to me.

I was in the house with HJN infront of me and we were eating cheerios with milk.
There was a knock on the door. *knoccksknooocks* A man came out and open the door. (I think that was the uncle) It was a police officer! The police officer made us stand in line. He reckon that me and HJN had different faces from his and his wife. Caus all the kids there look alike.
He ask: " who's this girl? *point hjn*"
Man said: "She's my niece."
Offier asked again: "What about her? *points at me*"
Man: " Oh! she's my adopted child"
I grin all day way not noticing his answer theeeeeeeeeen.. POOOF! I woke up
and said woah. that was weird and continue my shower. HAHAHA!

Jalaaan raya hari ini!

over and over and overrrr.

IT'S OVEEEEEEEEEEER!

like its finally over.

helllloooo!! its oveeer. :DD

but then again, im going to miss it.
im going to miss that the fact i enjoy those pressure and panic moments.
im going to miss the whole environment.
im going to miss the morning breakfast at arabiah.
im going to the sitting buds.
im going to miss the random moments.
im going to miss psssssst-ing and embarssing myself.
MAIN POINT: I AM GOING TO MISS STE.

Its the last day and everyone was buzzing with excitment. No one was even thrilled to study for the last paper cause we were all excited! :DD When it was over, I heard shrillings and joy below. I smiled to myself upon checking my paper and well, enjoying my last moments. and my other "last moment". :DD Last step on the hall was celebrated with a jump. Shifa and I jumped out and screaming silently. By then all of us were rushing here and there screaming ITS OVEEEEER! But not for our arabiah maties. All the best and Good Luck you all. And I have no idea if anyone would actually read this.

I honestly do not know how to talk to shaheed anymore. he is like minus on the manners and superb frustrating. I would love to kill him but I'm afraid I might miss him. STUPID!

I dont mind people asking about you. But its just sad to recall what happen between us. The story will be going on and on and on and people would still wonder what happen to us. Its frustrating. Your name are still stapled on their mouths and I still wonder when are they going to fade away.

eh random.

SAPE NAK KENE TEMBAAAAK?! :DD
offer free shots but please provide you own guns. :DD
I feel like killing.

I need to find a nicer black BG.

aiinano texted me and she said:

Shz.
Pack ur stuff fr fri.
Bring them tmr.
We're going.

Look, we're planning to run awaaaay. awaaay from the city.
CHEY BEDEK. :DD Ain's planning to bring me awaay cause she doesnt want anyone else to own me. So, Siraaj, PROVEN AIN LOVES ME MORE THAN SHE LOVES YOU! Gahahahah!

i frcking cannot believe that my brother is already a big boy. HE GREW DRASTICALLY!
i miss him terriblly and barely see him at all. he suck. i hate him. gosh. i still miss innocent clueless him. Dear Shaheed's Friends, Quit Gripping Him Away Lah. i miss him. AND I KNOW YOUR READING THIS!

STE moment ahh.

i am so into blogging and letting people know my life and expose all my thoughts so i decided to write my day in a notebook and write then back here. IN THIS BLOG! woaah.

(looks into my notebook)
Date: 28/09/09

Due to STE, the rents forbids my access to the net which means no net. (awwwww!)

First Paper: NAHU/SARAF.

I felt nothing and just kept swimming into the words until my eyes were watery. then, BAMM!! they were red. literally red for two days.

Second Paper: TAFSIR.

it was weird and tiring and very weird. i sneezed so loud that i could hear echo and it was annoying. so that shows that the hall was huge. very huge. good thang its huge cause there's air circulating or else its SO HOT!

then, i got bullied with ain cause she loves me so much and blew up on Mai cause I was PMSing. Superb PMS and then poooof! I see all the sisters coming in. Speaking of the sisters, I read the STHD blog, I nearly cry but i didnt. I would only cry if I see changes or else, poor bestie bebuih aje mulut. And this isnt the first time someone confront them all. Like what i've told maya, I am done trying. I am going to stay by the sidelines. I am happy on the sidelines clueless-ly cause I am happy with the irsyadians. No offence.

Date: 29/09/09

BIG MISTAKE!
I'm glad I have been studying smart cause I predicted 70% of the paper but boohoo! I didnt study hard enough. Lousy! I blew my paper up just like that. I took the paper for granted and I am now crying. CHEY! bedek ahhh. (talking about: STE FIQH)

I look like a GOALKEEPER!
the "new" jersey we ordered last year finally came in. It was nice but ehh, boleeeeh lah. We received extra kechiiings for fund. And they spelled my name wrongly! Like doooop, HJN's name is so complicated to spell and you got MINE WRONG?!! its with a 'H' not 'Y'. (ehh wait, memang baju goalie laah! GOAL!)

that day, Nenek and Bii officially celebrated their first year anniversary owning an I.C. cause its their birthdaay. Happy Birthday Yo! May God Bless Y'all and shower you with happiness.

DATE: 30/09/09

THE PAPER WERE ALL GLORYGLORYGLORY!
I love them paper. I love my seating. I love the whole thang. :DD
I had to smile and be overjoy during the whole duration. The girls are starting to go GAGA annd i know why. Nyhahah!
like finally, I saw Yasmin and the Gang.

LAST PAPEEEEEER TOMORROW!
please make it worth dear god. (:

naaak!

eh tak boleh angkat lagi ahh.
nak terbang balik.

terbang balik sorang pon takpe. dudok kat rumah cik rahidah gan shaheed pon cool.
if you ask me if i want to go back, no doubt and no hesiation i kate YES! YES! YES!
kalau boleh tarik all my friends in.

study break sucks.
i feel so suckish that i decide to ruin my blog.
&& TADAAA! BLOG RUINED.

doa selamat sape nak bace?

to my fellow cohorts,
wishing all of you all the best for tomorrow
and may Allah assist all of you during our four days of jihad.
Let us all make our parents, teachers, school proud.
GOOD LUCK AH! (salute)

&& dear readers,
dont just look and stare and read.
pray for all of us as well.
raya dah ruin separuh jalan ni.

(okay tgh blank cause i have no idea what to say)
Jangan lupa doa' kan yang lain.

lucky to have them.

the celebration was a bravo one.
okay so it was that amazing but it was a job well done. I was suppose to be crowd controlling in the morning but i came in late for duty for HAH! I was lost. Hung out with najihah and nabilah at the MPR and check out the little kiddos. Danish wore his first day outfit and won primary best raya outfit! TB punye outfit mesti lah power punye, sempat model lagi ade. tak sia sia jadi keluarge. :DD

Hang out with Syu, Nazihah all day long. Awaaay from the crowd and full of fresh wind which mean minus the sweats. JYEAAAH!! We were like walking with VIP passes. Here and there and finally decided to chill behind with the audio crew. Video tape the event and chill back. Well, everyone was awesomely dressed, and the semangat were there. To those you missed it, well you kinda miss the slight fun. SecFive did an awesome job on the dzikir barat and the girls, nabjo poweeer meh. her talkings were so mami jarum. Shira and I had to rush off early due to family issues and the abg sedare joined in. 59 home ride was whacked. :DD

Family gathering. (minus pictures, still waiting for shira) it was okay. Honestly, this year I felt the bond between the cousins. We seriously had major talks or else it will usually be exchanging glares and stares. Irfan and Iffah was finally opening his mouth and finally talking. Alif finally came down. Abg Lutfi finally started arguing with me again, Mariyam is finally sharing her tales, Kak Meera, Shira and Nadiyyah are finally "gossiping" together and little humairah finally knows all her kak and abg sedares name. I am thrilled by it now i am waiting for irfan's treat. During the second open house we went, the guys, shira and I sat outside and basically noise polluting the corridor with laughters and mocking. We spend hours outside enjoying the night breeze and bonds between me and the cousins. (:


you still have no idea.

i wish for a crayon, i want to scribble my face...

but im too lazy. (continue the tittle)

i finally receive a sunflower. early yesterday morning, hjn gave me a bouquet of sunflower and purple carnations. She even went on her knee. awwww. so sweeet right? And now its aminah's turn and she still remembers. *claps* now, i have to get them some flowers as well. :DD

Sijil Thanawi/Tingkatan Empat (wow, it sounds malaysia) or STE is coming up and i am not please with it. But i am glad I started a week earlier although its not enough for me now. but hey, its waaaay better than those who havent start revising. So, if you're a secondary four irsyadian and your reading this, BETTER START YOUR REVISION NOW! AS IN NOW, ASAP! or you'll suffer and no kidding.

hari raya celebration cum teacher's day cum children's day celeb is tomorrow. and the cousins are having their open houses this weekends. I wonder when mama is going make a rumah terbuke. hmm.

i am confuse.
i dont know what im hiding, what kind of feeling and which kind of feeling. what truth am i hiding? Why do I feel frustration.
why do i feel this way? is this another growing process kind of thing? where we kids sit back and think or maybe some inspirations popped out. where the level maturity shoots up? is it? is it? is it? maybe its a killer. the very same killer with the new edition of mixed feelings.
i want a wishing star.
a star that can wish for my childhood life back. where its total freedom and total carefree where i know nothing and free from everything. but duuuurh, its superb impossible.

sudden silent? where?

honestly, who likes being mad and grumpy everyday.
i dont want to quarrel anymore or do i wish for anymore fights, buts its just too frustrating.
i nearly threw my phone against the wall, instead i was mass texting to cool it down.
but then that certain someone ruined my serious mood. oh GAH!

HALF DAY! THIS WHOLE ENTIRE WEEK SCHOOL WILL ONLY BE HALF DAY. (for our cohour only) but its pointless cause previously, our timetable were scheduled half day as well, after one fifty five its self study which no one even bother to do it. Aiin today is totally whacked, Shifa got massive hyped up and farah was being cynical but i wonder where was afiqah? hmm. selamat hari raya makcikmakcik canteeeen!

shouldnt I be talking about hari raya? its only the third day of lebaran. frcking third day (!!!)
i was random blogging hopping and (durrrh) everyone else were posting up their raya pictures and storytelling their days. I find it rather interesting and brought my mood up. I think I got so happy I nearly cried. The smile, the joy in everyone faces, the glow in the eyes and the fat tummies. :DD

I got more school, more revision and more hafalan to do.
BUMMERS LIKE YOUR BUMPY RABBIT BUTT.

loaded lagi.

isit really kecoh kecoh raye or isit the woman herself.
i had my bumpy moment with ma and it became even worse then. but thankyou cousins who made it all slip through my mind. and thankyou friends for reminding me over and over again. Aljunied is having their day off and we dont. oh wee. -_______-

mami dah's place was awesome but i bet it would be better if we bought nadiyyah's cake and it will be a hari raya gathering cum nadiyyah's sweet sixteen. but nooooooo. pfft. the dara(s) had our chats and hangat gossips in the room. macam rindu kak meera, awwwww. eat more mee soto and sambal sotong annd fuuuh, nafsu went upupup.

family photo during dad side was funnneh and hectic. durrh, i had blur pictures but it was funn. should have turned on the stabilizer. Abg Huzaifah was being normal him, goofing around and it seems only him and I were the only youngsters making jokes and random moments. awkward? of course lah.

Oh! Shadi puked. it was disgusting.

Shira and I planned on making a sleepover at nenek's as we could create a study group for our upcoming major exams. and the whole plan is down the drain. hancuuuuuur. i cant study here, at home. And I havent start revising either. nak mati? aah lah. gambra like whaaat.

hari raya yang kedue.

HARI RAYA SPECIAL. :DD
i use to remember watching this during the second day of raya and laugh out loud as I sing along.
ohhhh NYHEHEH!

I should be out now, but grrrr.
the family is circling around and around and around the house pointless-ly.
dah siap pon. oh sheeesh.

hari ini nadiyyah punya hari jadi yang ke enambelas.
kami akan ke rumah mami dah seperti tahun tahun yang lalu.
tetapi saya taku jikalau nadiyyah tidak datang, sia sia aja beli kek untuk dia.
hmm.

PEGI BELAJA STE LAAAAAH!!

step insomania.

its the next day alright.
I cannot sleeep. I am still up and tired. distraction distraction distraction.
i want to sleep like this girl lah!

eh bapak syu dulu shira punye mak punye classmates.
btol? :DD