To remember.

Survival Camp 2012 - Jakarta, Indonesia 

It was  memorable trip. Our Jungle, Our Playground.

(5 June 2012)
ITMAJ had to reach as early as 430. Earlier than the secondary three participants and everyone were being superb ITMAJ cause most of us were on time. BRAVO TEAM. Ustaz Ali gave us few heads up and expectations for the trip and soon it was time to check in and bid farewell to our parents. Garuda Airlines was such a deary for a pleasant flight. :) As soon as we reached Jakarta, it was Zoo Time. Raguna Zoo for a picnic lunch and animal sight seeing. I love the elephants there. They were so cute and so friendly. <3 Awarded the most ANTM elephants.

(6 June 2012)
It was time to hike up a mountain of trash and dirt to sell for some kachings. Some warm up games to heat up the scent around. :D Despite the "survival" in the rain we managed to collect 22,000 rupiah from the whole gang.

(7 June 2012)
Highlighted day! It was river dipping and jungle trekking barefooted. SUPERB ADVENTURE!
The scenery and the sensation feeling was brilliant. Masyallah. It was a beautiful day and the perfect to head out. I love the part when there was a dead end while jungle trekking and our only way out is to jump into the river. :D It was amazing to find the end of the river a beautiful simple waterfall at the end.
At night, it was time to self reflect. Each camper were left alone in the jungle. It was a lonnnnnnnnnng session when that happen. But for all I know, I had a nice late night sleep.

 

(8 June 2012)
I received the most intersting birthday cake from Mateen Deefan who can cook. XD Thank you you guys for the birthday song and wishes and ice creams. :) Shopping before catching our flight to Singapore.

Nurul' Ain Nabilah

Your huge stepping stone. Le future.

We barely get to hang out and do anything before you leave and now you're across border already. Our BFF friendship was never the perfect or ideal one but it's truly unique and one in a million kind of thing. You know the perfect reaction to react, the perfect word to say and simply understand what I've gone through without me uttering or explaining anything. Just by few statements and WALLA! You got me.

I've gone to several places and I could see that no one can really replace you. We got our own "how to roll" which is superb cool. Right now, it's another adventure of our long distance friendship. Hey, we've done this and we made it! So Yeah.. we can do this. We've gone through this and you're always the tough one. The fighter. You won't let anything down without any effort and girl, you're doing a fine job at it. Just like how you will doing in Uni later. You will keep fighting and keep aiming to be higher than any students there. Cause you're a fighter.

I might not be there for you always, but I'm definitely always here for you when you need me. It's just a Whatsapp or tweet away. Just beep me if you need me.

I'm sorry I havent been the ideal one to reach to you, but I'm glad and thrilled to helped you out when you're in need okay darling? :) Wishing you the very best there and good luck. I know you can do it and one day you will soar higher than you expect and make both of your parents proud. Don't worry, you'll receive plenty of food there. :D I know so. I love you kid.

Away We Happened.

I have always adore their style of filming and their goofy cuts. :D

Makes me adore more of photography and filmography.

Happy 19th

Leaving for Jakarta for 4 days. Trying to think positive since Today reported an earthquake earlier. 

Insyallah Kheir.

Well, I made a birthday wish list for 2012. 

(hehehehehe) 

1. Ticket to Sultans of Science at the Science Centre

2. Ticket to Harry Potter's exhibition at the Art of Science at Marina Bay Sands

3. Another free trip to USS (bonus!) 

4. Tons of colorful helium balloons and a picnic. 

5. Colorful Markers and a cute notebook. 

6. Few pairs of colorful socks. 

7. Your time. 

8. A trip to the bowling alley and tickets to the movie. 

9. iPhone screen protector with a new color earpiece. 

NYAHAH! 

feeling all colorful this year. We should be bright and smile.

Promote happiness. Happy June Holidays! 

It has been a long time.

It has been a bumpy road and we've been looking more to the negative rather than the greener side of the field. We've been looking at faults to see the beauty. You're right. I've been neglecting many things as a friend, and as a human too. I should be going with the flow and live life to the fullest. I make mistakes. 2012 have been rough, but it has been meaningful. 2012 is a great year, Alhamdulillah. 

Thank you. :) 

It's nice to have somebody and someone always there for you. Who is brave to own it up to you and spot your mistakes so you won't make a fool our of yourself in the future. Who would come up to the crowd just so you'll receive the best. Who would still care and concern for you despite being so mad, upset, disappointed and hurt by you. Who would be strong for you and the person him or herself too. I doubt I can that strong like you, Mateen. 

Thank you. 

Well, that's not all. I've learned many things from alot of people this year. 

From the associates I've worked with, the mentors that mentored us, the kids I've taken care of, the asatizahs I've converse with, my parents and also my annoying brother. Life can be brutal, but it's always fair because happiness will always be with you and in you every corner along the way. As long as you believe Allah is with you, you'll be safe. :) 

Things aren't changing.

What happen if things like this happen to us?
Slowly its happening don't you think so.

Where's the trust? Make me believe that you do trust me.
Why do I still see your insecurity.

19th May 2012, Wedding of the Year.

"Insyallah, we'll be sisters forever. May Allah bless our friendship, Amin.." 

From strangers to friends to close friends and suddenly we were sisters.

We wanted a friendship where we could share to our children and grandchildren and here we are,

We have our Sisterhood. 

We were still noobs until... 

Diyana decided to settle down and get married. :) 

It was such a blessful day.

Just because one of us now got herself a husband, the rest of us were being extra lady and extra grow up. We can't believe that time flies so fast and we still have each other. :) 

Mid Term Updates.

It's time for more play time.
Half of Senior is gone and even the Mid Terms are done.
28th May will determine how I did for the first half of the term well one thing for sure is that,
I'm tired.

Yupp, I am really trying. But if I would have to change 360 and start to lose myself is it worth the change? I'm trying really hard not to get again and again and again. I'm putting effort here and there. But if all you see are just my mistakes, flaws and my past. I'll leave you there. Cause today is about looking forward to the future. I dont want to sit back with the past.





4 more days to the Big Thing.

Is this it?

You win. You're right. You always have been. You deserve better than this. And I can't give you better.
I talk big. I say things that shouldnt be said. I dont do what I say. My actions are meaningless.
I can't make you feel special or be special. I can't make you be different from the others cause in your eyes, I treat the other better than the way I treat you.

I'm sorry I caused a mess around you. Just look at you right now.
I'm eating you up alive.

Your grades are sloping. Your always tired and down.
You are regularly hurt and damaged. You're losing yourself.
And I'm the cause. I'm good for nothing.

Be smart. do the right thing now.
Don't worry about me, I'll learn how to be strong.

Sky of Love, G'12.

Friday, the 13th of April.

G'12 had put first massive outing to the Marina Barrage. :D It was splendid~

Some of us stayed for the sunset while other set sail first.

We arrived there and had a group photo and other random shots. The sun was sorching and it's funny how ustazah Zuraidah, Q and myself ran away from the group to steal some air con from the shop and the bathroom next to it. Soon, the tour was start. Since most of the girls we already huddling, we decided to keep it simple. Move back behind the crowd and chill. We still learn but in a non kiasu method.

As the tour ended, we had a yummy dinner and tada. FUN TIME TILL DARK.

The sunset was beautiful. The G'12 were wonderful. Ustazah Zuraidah was too. :D

Thank You God for blessing me with these beautiful people.

tummy drama part three

My past three days have been a tummy drama. It's been like this....

My body energy level is going down.. down.. down...

But it was fine, cause I had good company during the three days. Worrying about plenty of things but I had good friends calming me down and told me all I need right now is some rest. Manage to study and do plenty of stuff which is kinda..good?

my by-your-side

When you're a little girl, all you do is play dress and be whoever you wanna be. Imaginations beyond your limits. But as you grew older, you began to stop imagining. Your imagination starts to fade its colors.

But who said I stopped? I am as wild as I can be. As jumpy as I can be. As naughty as I can be. Why? Because You gave me the imagination to imagine, the dreams to dream and flew with me around the universe like I'm Peter Pan. Priceless.

If it wasn't for you, I won't be who I am today.

I'll still be the mess I was yesterday.

Thank you.

where was I?

"i dont care abt tt, what if i just tell you tt i need you? to help me be strong, remind me of the stuffs needed to remember, study with me again, excell with me like how we used to, Help me choose the right path the right decision like how u did back at 2010"

sense to make

Things havent been making sense lately,

It all started with: Me.

I'm ignorant. I couldnt careless. I am like a heartless breed with no soul and heart.

Am I happy? I am grateful that I'm alive. But this heartless breed with no soul and heart is turning me upside down.

I'm glad I am closest to the warmest and friendliest person in school.

If it wasnt for her, I'm as cold as ice. She knows the potential in me and she knows the icy part of me. But her equation right now for me, not much of a result.

On the other hand, I got another person who is always hurt by my cold. I maybe be a mess but I dont like to see other caught up in my mess. I'm a pusher. I push. I do wish you wont get tangled, cause I can't bare to see you get hurt. I no longer want to be the reason you're always upset cause lately, I can no longer make you happy. When was the last time I made you smile.

I have to learn how to be kind. I have to learn to be warm. I feel like I dont know how to care, I dont know how to comfort. I dont know how to give you a gentle touch to serene you. For others, its as simply as abc, but for me its a large Einstein equation for me.

Hi.

I'm ridiculous. I'm complicated. I'm selfish.

Sport, we unite.

It's finally over. It's kinda fast dont you think so.

And what's new? My face. Burned. Thank to who?

Le Sun during IMG.

My march holiday started brilliantly. My mind was transparent as you know what I wanted each time. :D A whole day spent splendidly. An adventure of our own. I liked when the night finally arrived as we strolled around the food court getting lost and ended up getting a drink at MCD. Slept over at Q's and we were ready for Day Two IMG; Netball.

The JIMPSTERS DID AWESOME FOR NETBALL AND CAPTAINBALL. We managed to get Gold for Captainball both Jr and Sr but I guess it wasnt our luck for Netball. The juniors managed to get third whereas the seniors got fourth.

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I decided to came down for Futsal and helped out with what can be helped. Juniors was my group to motivate and cheer upon. They did superb well. I nearly burst into tears seeing them fight in the Cage.

"Once a JIMPSTER, always a JIMPSTER"

Team Junior: Gold Captainball. The Only All Win Team.

Team Senior: Gold Captainball. The Fighters.

IMG was an experience. This year was different. The students really tired their best to win the sportmanship and avoid all unnecessary arguments and fight. We even protected and defend each other when someone came to insult one another. :D Most of the school loved Aljunied's Cheer. :D Na Na Na Na ~

My Job here is done. The girls manage to learn something about themselves and about believing. They got what they wanted. I've guide myself and them too through out the journey. I learnt something no classroom can teach me. It made me stronger and wiser too. I could have not learn those without the JIMPSTERS help and also without Kak Nisa's wisdom and experience.

mmhm.

The past week was a tough week. Indeed a free ride of The Reality of Roller Coaster.

But Alhamdulillah, I got family and friends who manage to pull me through and help me out along the way. Finally, CA WEEK A.K.A POST EXAM = DONE!

Good thing: March Holiday is Here! Time for a break.

Not So Good thing: IMG heat is on! Are we ready? You'll see.

Starting of March holiday seems to be going fine. Monday is the starting of the holiday, right?

friday,

Still waiting.

It was a try out. It did bring some benefits didnt it?

I learn that you will always be there,

"cause she's like a sunshine, everything brightens up when she's around"

Still am.

It's stay home Saturday the day before.

Plenty of work to finish up and YAY! Complete most them. Well, I had to.

There was a party going on at the Woodlands Stadium. A Must Go Party. :D

The stage were rocking it away with wacky hosts, direct to the point khutbahs, cute kids and melodious Qasidah and Nasyids. A Job Well Done 7 Hours. Didn't even saw the time ticking away. ^^

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"Text to Sister"

I saw it. You told my little to be strong and not portrait any sign of weakness.

I miss that part of You. You've always been strong and even share with other that strength of yours. But when I'm around, you lost that strength didnt you?

I'm killing you,

Staying home obediently today. Had KFC for breakfast with Mama before she headed for work. Catched up as she left. Stayed home and have been on the Mac since.

Will be heading Kallang soon for Netball. The girls spirit are really pushing me harder and harder. I am determined now. I shall inspire and motivate them through their passion. I hope they will apply them in their daily life as well.

Taught me a little something. Maybe I'll try to apply it.

Afterall I'm a bad listener, always excited.

I like speed.

A formula I saw:

You = Sad > Me = Sad

Me = Trying to be strong and not be sad = looks like I dont care when I do.

I cant join the the cruise of sadness as well. I'm losing my confidence and my esteem gradually and I cant let that happen. I need them for myself, for my friends. It getting insane lately. I dont even know what I'm doing anymore. Have I lost my control?

what if..

I've always love elephants especially the plushie ones. :D

They're just too cute and deserve a hug.

CA week (or should I say weeks) are here. It's crazy cause they arent really tests. More like exams cause they're modular subjects. No exams just common test. Can. Die. Have been squuezing my brain juice to the extend that I've ran out of juice.

Conclusion: Sick Girl blogging away.

Well, I have been tired physcially, mentally and emotionally. Just ptaying for the better right now, Insyallah.

I'm sorry I can't be who I use to be.

Barely a shine to the sun.