i cant belive im on the way to singpore now. WOAAAH WAKE ME UP.everything is juust
like a dream. now im on plane from san fransisco to hong kong to singapore.

OTTAWA.
woke up early in the morning. i cant belive i was sick. bad time. my throat was "rusted" or
dead dry. didnt really do anything much. went online andn helped mom out while i try to get
some rest(again). aunt francinse gave me $20US and off to the airport. heh. i slept most of the time
on the bench(i was sick okay couldntn take it.) then cik azidah bough me hot chocolate and a bottle
water. much better. and we were off.

OTTAWA-TORONTO FLIGHT
a short 50 min flight. i didnt even get to enjoy the show. then we went throught security.
later then we lost shadi( i was the first one to reliase that. proud.XP) shaheed ran to find him
guess what. shaheed said he found shadi lining up at the pub. hahaaa.
okay toronto airport is equal to crap but nice. rent a cart for $2 and ull get 25cent bck
if u return it. =.= but i enjoy it.
sleep agaiin,made some noise and we were eating weird stuff but they were good. spend most
of the tome sleeping again.

TORONTO-SAN FRACISCO
this flight again more sleeping. well its cos of the i took the medicine that why.
arrived at San Frasisco. again security check. but this time all the ladies in my family
had to go inside this machine and it was like WTH. goossh. good luck taking care of your country
america. hmm. had salmon terriyaki, calfornia roll and crab roll for dinner there while
waiting for the net flight. there prayed and chilled,


SAN FRACISCO-Hong Kong-Singapore.
before it took off from the plane we saw fireworks(HAPPY NEW YEAR!)
THE MOST BEST AWESOME FLIGHT EVER. SQ is love. watched tons of movie AND sleep.
thats basically it in the 18h flight. it was okaay tho didnt feel the 18h pass.
then watched this bollywood movie. oh god. BEST OI. landed hong kong. ate burger king. prayed. then i got a high raging fever. i slept it became worst. i felt like half dead already. i can barely move. reached woodlands and just somehow fell and sleep till maghrib with was like cannot take it no more but to just lay. met grandmother dwnstair and talk to her while she stroke me and comfort me. then when to tampines the other grandmothers hse and just sleep.
and sleptover there.

today was much better.pray for me to get better soon
dad got me prepaiid for me and have been texting. afiqah called.
oh pandai ain ade number rumah nenekku. (:
oh i found out some people kt my class noes that im sick
according to the info that person gave la kn.
that was super fast.

going out with the SH tomrowww.
yay!!
((:

tomorrow is my flight. 2pm. kak ani dont know how la now. give me your number(by IM) then ill call u and tell u how. dasar tk organize sey. haha. i didnt log in the internet cos i slept back and had a ver very very intersting dream. i screamed at shaheed for waking me up. i was like "gawd whole on give me 5 min i want to see wat will happen." he just laugh. stupid. my morning was weird.
i cant seem to recall.

today when to the mall with aisha and dana. i swear i was diffrent. all of us were diffrent. why? cos we were. somehow i met few people too. i saw iman( a bus dude who dosent knw me but we like do see each other everyday in the bus),huda,amal,shermarke&friends and some public school people who dana know. it was random tho. so much sarcasm from dana. i spilled a cup full of orange soda and it was embarrassing. we were looking at stuff where somehow dana got excited and i was somehow bored and couldnt careless who tired to get interested. typical me. prayed and dana and talked for while and her dad send us off. her dad is scary but hes nice. and now tired. im going to miss them.




pray for us so we'll have a safe trip.

3 WORDS : MAD AND PISSED.

well easy say why is: parents. =_________="
hate morning.
love evening.
tired night.

all of us were really high somehow. we kept on laughing on the stupid stuffs every time cos stupid crappy jokes will always come up. every sentence we sad will always end "bodoh la. eh salah kurang pandai."
these kids dasar spammers. the took my copyrighted phrase shud sue them.

then later went to the mall to get some stuff for people. i got the sisters candy cane and other things. and i got kak ani her hershey already.

log in internet.
just wow.
human drama.
got tired then,

wow maya panjang post kamu.
the chinese dude creeps me.

now im just tired.
and feeling low.

HAPPY 16TH ANNIVERSARY PARENTS.

well actually it was suppose to be on the 27.
i dont know why wished them today. hehe.
well rusda i think we're on the same track.
u wished ur dad's birthday the next day too.
well today when to friday prayers and saw aisha,rima,abdulaziz and ibrahim.
and left to cik azidah's.
im xcited for school now. while on the bus i had tons of laughter hilarious.
oh yesterday night. dad was being weird. he was playing the gamecube. =____=

dad: tgk tu my gf. sniper lg de.(continue playing hard like some addicted kid)
me&shiham: yea sure. jage de baek2.
dad: alaamak! larii larii !! (dies) see la. kn da matii ni sume mama nyer psl la. she pull the wire abih shiham picit sume. [while us laughing our ass off cos it was so hilarious.]
mama: eh i didnt do anything seyy.
me: yee salah kn kte. asal tk slah kn gf baba tu. =_____=
dad: ape je..

random giler.

OH YAN.
se short gitu post kau take u so lame.
ape la u hun.

oh. I WANT TO ASSIST ABG HATTA WITH HIS CCA.
I WANT TO HELP ABG HATTA AAND ENJOY THE FUN TOO.
I WANT TO JOIN U PPL MAIN NETBALL.
yan baek kn nk settle kn untok ku, (:
sayaaaaaaaaaaang kamu.♥

09. I'm a forkstar beepbeep. ((: says:
krg nyer after school activity ape?
rusdaa ; && the time will decide says:
usually aft school tkder activities sgt only when theres inter house & intermad or sports day we need to practice.
rusdaa ; && the time will decide says:
kteorg ade hosue practice 1 times in a week
rusdaa ; && the time will decide says:
mcm2 sports ade arh. netball,volleyball,handball,badminton,floorball
rusdaa ; && the time will decide says:
tu utk pompan arh
rusdaa ; && the time will decide says:
laki ade takraw(tk silap),bola,badminton,basketball
09. I'm a forkstar beepbeep. ((: says:
wts floorball?
09. I'm a forkstar beepbeep. ((: says:
wats interhs?
09. I'm a forkstar beepbeep. ((: says:
isnt it the same with sports day?
rusdaa ; && the time will decide says:
die mcm hockey. same lah hockey but we callit floorball
rusdaa ; && the time will decide says:
eeeyup.
09. I'm a forkstar beepbeep. ((: says:
;o
09. I'm a forkstar beepbeep. ((: says:
floor hocker
09. I'm a forkstar beepbeep. ((: says:
okay now im goig to go crazy.
09. I'm a forkstar beepbeep. ((: says:
!!

IVE GOIING WILD NOW.
IM CRAZY FOR FLOOR HOCKEY.
u have effing no idea.
alaaah but step akn kene pick je.
hrmmphs.
i hope do.
i wonder wat house im going to be.
okaay too much for being excited cos rusda is tellling me everythiiing.

i dont really get it. everything is passing so fast.
im confuse ?
and i feel like im lack of sumtin.
a something where all the others have that i dont.
but what is it?
oh i look diffrent in some reasons.
shifa was the one who says so.
she says somehow i look like mastura(her irsyad bff's big sister)
=___________="

oh i found out bot classes.
sec 3 ihsan(girl class) : rusda,farah,ain and aziie and me. ((: [&& we will rawk hard]
sec 3 itqan(girl class): shira, nadiyyah and afiqah(yes afiqah wafah)
sec 3 iman(boy class): abg sedareku.

every classes at least have 3 new kids. i want to b in the same class with shira and nad malang nyer ku mahu rusda too. and aziie. i so dont wan the bdk alsogodd seyy XP
oh yes afqah is in irsyad. and the class tk mix seyy.
GILER PUNYE TK BEST. >;[

imissyoubutidontknowwhoyouare.

let the pics tell you wat i did yesterday at aunt amys
oh addition: played ps3 and wii like giler. and also chinese checkers with shifa.









































those are yesterday's story.
TODAY:
morning internet.
crapped agaiin.

new drag rawker.
PORKSTAR.

wan change his to
COKESTAR.

i wonder whats maya's
AND SHE CANT B ONNLINE NO MORE.
im missing her. ):

todaay i was quite high i kept saying things more than 3 time.
i like it.
oi oi oi oi oi !!
BOXING DAY IS TODAY.
rawking awesome.
jeng jeng jeng.

shopped the whole day.
few days ago rusda was looking around for hot chinese dudes.
now it was my turn. excpt they werent chinese.
((:
teeeheehe.
no comments at last i swear.
XP
i got a digital camera.
&& IN YOUR PEOPLE FACE WHO TRY TO RUB IN IT MY FACE THAT U ALL HAVE PSP.
_cough maya,yan,aiin&&kak anii
gawwd aku kentot kn muka krg seyy.
now i hv too.
hahahaaa.
BUT.
shaheed&shadi nyee for the moment now sbb they got nothing.
=______________="
mama said she going to get my OFFICIAL one kt SG.
hrmmphs.

OH MAYA!
get him out of my mind now !!
asik tepikir psl de seyy.
naseb baek dr shopping tk terpikir.

OH YAN!
theres no more DSDW much seyy.
there no more Dynamic Sophisticated Duo Weird.
no there is Dynamic Sial Duo Weird seyy.
bwhahahaha..
no offence hun.
ILY♥

i swear i make first bad impression.
happens all the time.
pfft.
i seriously need help.
the evilness too right.
i swear people will comment bot it.
hahaha.
hmm i enjoy today's morning quiite.
tho i wasnt that hyper cos my weirdness is deaaad.
yesterday did nothing much but infornt of the lap the whole day.
i got frustrated with the whole family at night.
gawwds.
i have nothing to blog.
going to aunt amys today.
HAPPY XMAS TO PPL.

OH MAYA,
come one girl.
cheer up, might have some benefit to it.
ur patience it golden kn. (took that from friendster SH profile)

OH TO THAT PERSON,
i knw u might not be reading this,
but i jus have to say.
YOUR PATHETIC.
i dont knw why i even bother.
pfft.

OH YAN,
teach wan and tell him
girls are smarter than boys.
XD
we rule.

off to aunt amys
will post and tell bot it.
with pics?

omgaay.
i love the morning crapness. maya,wan& yan really rawked the craps out of my morning.
presenting the drag rawker.

DIYANAwokstar.
SHAZAforkstar.
WANcockstar.
psst. whats maya?

it was full of crapness which was totally rocking cool.
then later out for brunch. when to zellers somehow christmas shopping for the neighbours.
and also camera shopping.
eh yan kt SG T200 brape?

while i was eating (subwaay. oooo. ) this questions bombarded me.
like what happen if i came bck to SG everything change.
what happen if no one likes me.
what happpen if all of the suddenn the sisters dont like me.
its like the first meet and im dead nerveous.
HELP.

reached home and log in the lappy.
and edit blog and post and other stuffings too.

OH YAN.
sorry i spammed ur style.
its rocking fever dudee.

OH ABDULAZIZ.
it was all a joke not talking to you,
i didnt really got that offended.
there was actually once even worse than this.
>;]]
so yea.
and dont use the word rocking.
its mine.
copyrighted.



going to aunt amy's hse agaiin on christmas.
its like a chistmas thing
heh. i think?
oh. shes chinese muslim.
so she has sib whose christan.

cik amy's hse was rawking cool.
no pics cos it the phone when dead. ( i knw i still used my phone)
+_________+"

while the others took the car with cik jo,
me and shaheed with shifa too took my sport car with danial (uncle joh's son)
it was so cool.
i was really in the need for speed sey.
>;]]
reach her hse as mom and dad havent arrive yet. so talked to aunty amy while listening to music.
then watched some shows and eat.
it was a very silence dinner for the little kids.
=__________="
when downstairs and watched american pie:the band club at muchtv.
andn also some zoey101,hannah montana and SLOZAC.
shifa and me were just laying our butts on the couch and eat.
the cake was okaays.
the fruits were okay.
NOTE: do not drink canadian dry soda club. it taste like plain water with gas. YUK.
then went home.
watched night at the musuem(again!)
and doze off.

i like her hse.








MAYA!
aku dah lose my weirdness.
this morning ni dont feel the hyperness and weirdness and the crapness.
NOOOOOOO!!
ni sume ko & wan nyer psl.
aku dpt kencing manisan.
im all grown up like diyana.(teeeheehe no offence)
:[[

im bored.
well like today like i told maya it suck.
but thanks to her for hearing out & also bringing the crap in me.





the morning turn out not to be so suckish at all.
[xcpt for the part where ABDULAZIZ ruin it. dude that wasnt funny. you went a little to far]
then talk to alot of ppl.
planed outing with kak ani.
and catched up with sha while helped mai with her blog.
then diyana came in.
=______________="
beeps la you. when im about to log out you log in.
daaang. i wanteed to talk to you about lots of stuff
after u nvr UPDATE or LOG IN.
so yeaa.
then went out with family.

okaay children listen up.
you should be lucky and jappy that you have proper food
everyday.
i am sick with not so proper food anymore.
mom didnt cook cos of the packing and all.
the hse is every hyper up.
:]] i like it.
so when to Macdonald's.
then to the bank. ( yay i got money. tons of money nyeheheeehaha.)
then got home.
i was pushing shifa and shiham into the snow( well i wasnt. i was ONLY PRETENDING.)
all of the sudden shaheed came from no where and pushed me in!
IT WAS WAR.
dang i hate boots. i cant even run.
then i laid on the snow and played suicide( from a height then jump into the snow backwards)
while waiting for mom and dad to catch us up.
then prayed and here i am.

toniight will be going to cik amy's hse.
will updatee bot it.
with pics?
oriites.

well. today. was. weird.

okaay it wasnt really that weird. morning internet. afternoon internet. night internet.

the day was boriing helped mom packed away and basically that it. but the most happening thing happen wat betweenn 7pm-8pm. dana and nouran really made me smile hard. it was so funnt. ILThem.♥

dana,
the dude is okay looking no comments too bad hes ESL.
:[ you lucky butt.

theen cos of dana me and shaheed and shifa had this wrestling thing going on.
we jumped on each other. the most hilarious thing was when shazrah jumped on shaheed!
it was so funny + cute.
the way how she jump on shaheed with her short legs.
she was like the little elf jumping on a robber who tried to rob some stuff.
FUNNNNNNNNY!

oh last night talk to abdulaziz. played the " i predict..." with him.
haahaaa.
i though u knew me well. but its the other way round.
I WON!
well maybe u are riight im unpredictable.
sweeeeeeeeet.

to you,
cheer up dear,
you are stronger then u think.
jjust keep on smiling.

to rusda,
desperatee dude alert.
funny. he scares me.
eh somehow bru je bobal but feel mcm da lame tk bobaal ar.

to shira,
suprisingly. i miss you.
weiiirds,

todaaay is thursday.
10 more days

so i was talking to kak ani and eyan. making her jealous like heck.

POLL OF THE POST,
result or ur choice pls tag at my tagboard.
SLR OR DIGITAL CAMERA

i just cant make the choice cos cos the pros and cons. hrmph.
todaay was another whole packing day for mom and internet laptop for me.
so i downloaded some games and play it. i as still in my pjs. omg i hate that family feud game. it made me feel stupid like my brain got crushed by a train. shifa kept on winnning and she nvr did anything. i was like the one scoring and answering.
gawwwds. then later i was like on crack. every single word i said she laughed.(funny.) i was being crazy and weird. oh i was also pretending to talk like a plastic but too bad it wasnt that plastically plastic. teeheeehee. so then continue doing stuff. and eat. and more laptop. more packing.


okaay,
im bored.fed up.frustrated.
my mom is taking over how i dress.
she said that i have to go shopping wiht her for clothes.
annd i cant buy my own clothes.
WTH IS THAT.
i noe how to dress properly.
i still have the shame in me.
gawwsh
dont thik that is going to happen.


skiing?
should go?
yes or no?

EID MUBARAK EVERYONE.
hope you enjoy those meats.

i was very very tired. bcos i slept at 1 last night (im very sorry person as i wasnt really helping much) got nagged my DAD to hurry and get ready and off to school for eid prayers. IT WAS SUPER COLD. i met my long lost beloved camera partner sagal,then thre were the gr7s adn 8 and also Fatima G, suhur, mariam, nima and also zahra. another huggies day for me =______="
as some people know i am not fond of this hugging thing. first i dislike hugging then i agree that maybe its not that bad. NOW IM OVER IT NO MORE HUGGING but maybe a little for the SH. then we talked, texted msging, while i talk to nima and zahra and some other people. both of those losers almost made me cry, RAWWWR. goosh im going to miss you all. D: there were many people to talk too. oh and people kept on saying that i look like my mom. NO I DONT. i look like my dad and i like it that way. hehe. no offence mom. we were off to ridaeu center. we ate there and talk. soon then while talking away i found out that dad was eating sushi! >:o well i order want to all for my self. hehe. it was YUMMMMMY. i never like sushi but this one was good. then walk around to shop dad and i went camera brwsing with shifa with us while the rest went to eb games checking out some video games. later then we ate ice cream and walk away. at that moment i felt like we were on a holiday shopping in a foreign country.(for me now canada isnt a foreign country, its my 2nd home country.) bought a candy cane(WOOOWEETS~) and slept in the bus and reach home wtch national security. omgaaay dad laughed his head off making all of us laugh even more harder. whatever that can make my dad laugh weirdly are serious funny. liike pink panther the movie. now here i am. playing wheel of fortune 2 and surfing away.



oh ain know my secret.
i cant help it.

now the whole family is getting excited to pack it all.
we're off.
dad got the tickets alreAAADY.















11 more days.

today was down,lots of hugging and cares showed(thanks alot abdulaziz see u force me to blog which made me cry! IHY) that how i could describe it. i came in i got huggs and people saying " awww shazaa its your last day" theen the day goes on. i was jus down. not much laughter,fun or jokes. i was like some how half dead. i dont evenn feel the vibe that im upset that im leaving but i would miss the people here. i day dreamed alot (which is quite surprising to be honest). took pictures for while during science. everyones who had phone took it out asking for numbers and photos and texting. then lunch was weiird. spend the lunch in class CRAZY. i jus gaze and observe and smile. im going to miss the girls wildness and the guys messy floor sides with their immature attitude.. ;'] im going to miss alot of stuff. LAST DAY OF SCHOOL! i got attcked by the gr 11. which questions that i got like squashed. theeen they asked me where i live and Hindustan movies.
=______="
i dont know wat else to blog bot today. i was down slow and SAD.
ih we were suppose to go outside and play for gym then it was too cold adn guess wat

the gym tchr said: " oh i dont care i want to shove shaza's face into the snow"
other girl: "yeeeaah!!"
me: " oh shiit RUN!" _dash thru the dooor

but they didnt do it. well of corse they didnt they love me too dearly XP
wtch a movie fall a sleep finding everyone was staring at me
EMBARASSING.
why?
cos i though i was talking in a sleep or sumtin like thaat.
u get it?

pluuus dad got the tickets already which made mE GO oooLALA,



im going to miss anoosh,asha,abdulaziz,thcrs,huda,juwayriya,spikey(serene) ni,maa,leyla and other people too.

somehow im going to miss anoosh's weiird friends too tho we havent meet but we knew much bot each other we jokes(thru her) people like haru and cimo and jake and pervy damon.
im going to miss their story.


thanks for the memories u all&the experiences.



read his post agaiin.
grrrr.
gawwwds. relaaax we wont forget you.
ill miss telling you to stop whistling when u strt to whistle.
;]]












oh no offense but i dont waant to go for eid pprayers.
hrpmh.
oh and all of the sudden i miss ustazah fatima







IMY.

today was an adventure. every moment was an adventure. from the sun rise till the moon shining somewhere in the dark sheet of sky.

so my i woke up in the morning feeling ready. i didn't really wan to go to school but it was my last day so i had too. so got ready and took the bus to school. IT WAS FREZZING COLD. it wasnt even funny. i was shaking and my fingers and toes were numb. i can barely walk. when we were walking to school, there was a car stucked in between the road. and the whole thing was troublesome. when i reached class the school was DEAD. ilham,DJ,abdulaziz,bashir were the only people there. IT WAS SNOW IN DAY! i told you dad! but i just keep on spending my dad at school tho i can go back home but nty. so i was talking to anoosh and the girls like about sagal's phone and phone plans. woaah i nvr know that we both we the only 2 people who actually know these stuff XP (feeling proud) the boy left the class so we had to ourselve we wanted to pparty but we end up putting loud music while me and anoosh played chess and checkers( i won chess[twice] she won checkers) and the other talk about shopping. =.= later then we got bored more talking and i decided to walk around and take pics. IT WAS CAM CRAZY TIME. psst. we spend 1h 30 in the bathroom taking pic while zayneb(a 6 grader) joined us. hilarious much. we had fun tho. then TABLE TENNIS RAWWK. hani(a 10 grader) was hilarious. theen we had so many funny incident going on. it was jus fun. after that we went downstairs while i watch a dog fight( a weiird juwairiya and anoosh fight) while i laughed and cracked jokes with hani and zayneb and later played basketball. funny. oh i got a weird cut i dont know how i got it i didnt feel it either. it was weird. so i call it my weird cut. then we walked around disturb people as we sit and watch a human reality drama. tsk3. then i kept going to the washroom after being a therapist listening and helping anoosh's problem about being confuse. i swear the book 'the boyfriend list' taught me how to be a therapist. hahahah. well it worked. im goood. tallked. lauughed while talk to people who passed by us while anoosh advertise to people that im leaving. everyone kept asking why im still at school? (they knw my name and i dont know theirs. and they also know i took the oc. wow.) my respond will be : "oh i love the school way too much. ;]"
pathetic but a good simple answer. heh.
then later we went out school property(where we cant) adn had our adventure.
we imagine that we were being chased. someone was going kidnapped us and all. it was fuuny.
anoosh made me run. she was like oh RUUUN. in the cold windy winter. TIIRED. then linger around. ooh i was hanging out so much that i lost track of time. got home finding shaheed and shazrah home only cos dad and the other 3 had parents tchr meeting. so went online.prayed.and got ready super fast. when to the school and just hang out with shifa and sundus and abdulrahim (gr4.gr7.gr6. heey there fun for small kids. they know me and i know them.) before that when to the gym foudn shifa and _Cough. talked to the tchrs. tchr anisa was happy that i got 93 for eng. and brother mustapha was like shoot 90? shud get 97 or something like that. yeaa i hate the average too. its the geography and the others. im regret getting 85 for science. ;[ soon then dad call and we went off to the airport to fetch mama. it took us and hour.(luckily tchr anisa gave the muslim girl mag and brought my mp3) bleeeeh found out mama still in chicago. due to flight being cancel cos of the weather. WTH. tiredsome, when to tim hurton. hot chocolate and bagel with cream cheese. sat down in a round table(by myself cos the previous table was not enough space) and read my mag with the mp3 on (cool riight. XP) then took the bus home and nslept. IT WAS COLD AGAIIN. i couldn't bare iit. brrr. the niight was so lovely. it was so serene, it was als9 clear that i could see the stars twinkle. hmm.
and now here i am.

reaad abdulaziz post. hah funny. it is truuee. we so brave that we take the bus eveyday so coold,
and eveyday he wll write bot me and shaheed leaving. no worries we wont forget you.
;]] how sweet of you tho.




i find myself expressless. i caant express my feelings to people. i usually listen to people and help them out but nvr go to people to express to them.i jus cant technically. but later then ill end up being depress and weiird angry feeling came out from no where. hrmph.

i want to meet abdulrahim's gr 10 brother agaiin pls.
like just now in the gym, ;]]
my tiny little secret hehe.

ITS THE WEEKENDS.

notthing happenn. dad cooked. we all helped. i actually did my chorus,my homework and play the internet the whole day with no nags. no offence towards mom but i liked it. on saturday, i was in my pjs the whole day. heh. i got lazy okays.
sunday. SNOW STORM. A HUGE ONE. IT WAS SOOOO COOL. i hope monday is snow in day? or maybe not. hrmph. im confuse actually. and things have been suckish.




i dont get it.

i went to school early agaiin with shaheed. the morning(before the first period) was loong somehow. anoosh came from and gave me a chocolate box. she gave shaheed one too. but mines better. :]] she gave me a letter too one typed the other one was written. there were many actiions going on thought that morning so i did enjoy the morning. but then the geography test and english ruin it. grr. annd also lunch. which affected the whole day too. native class was awkward weird. i was being stupid. why? the tchr asked the class what do we learn in the story and others were oh beauty dont last forever and all. i was like oh dont ask ghost questions. ;P i like my answer it make the tchr smile. for a while cause the guys were being immature. agaiinn. today was jus wasnt the day. i dont like it much. it was down. im not in the mood i guess. shaheed pissed me off when we were goinng back home. it was freezing cold. and yea. theeen things became worst.

i really wanted to be friends. but it turned out differently. and the wrong way. from friendly to very mean. well it my fault too that i somehow started it. then we attacked each other with very harsh responds. but the last part really hurt me badly. i realized that i was slow today after the person left. i realized i was slow while blogging. i really want to say to that person im really sorry and it was my fault and i admit it. but somehow i cant.
and i have a secret.


oh i realized another thing just now.
its too early to miss that person.
and i dont know if i should miss that person.
but i guess i jus miss that person already
so person i miss you already.


today just isnt my day,
i want to cry
i wannt to scream
someone make me feel better pls.
even the person whom i expect to make me smile or make me feel better didnt.
i jus..
depression.
ive been slow.














going back home SOON.
dad made me not to tell so im sorry.



>>>>
after a whiile. i played habbo. got crazy. then abdulaziz'spost on zak was funny it made me smile for the first time after the inncident.
CREDIIIITS TO YOU GUYS.

HAPPY 13th BIRTHDAY SHAHEED!!

yes. it was shaheed's birthday. my little guy best friend. okay maybe he isnt that little. so today i went to school early. i beat these earlier comers too[people like anoosh and abdulaziz] it was hectic. bleeeh, i was int he rush and everything. i would like to thanks the math tchr for calming me down for nt chcking the homework. why? cause 1st i did the wrong pg. 2nd i did half of it. later then it was engliish more stressed. and i got to admit according to abdulaziz bot english class. its all bot anoosh and brother abudulaziz. bleeeh yak yak yak. they kept on talking and talking it like only them.( last oeriod of english was the same thing tooplus this time muhim was sort of in too) but then the fire alarm rang, some screamed while others were hooting. i forgot to bring my jacket along and it was FREZZING. my hands were frozen. COLD. i wan to sue that person so badly now. but then it was cool. science wtched a video about thory of evalution. the last 10 min i slept. omgayy i was a good nap! the weather and all. lunch was quiet. we didnt knw where asha went so me and anoosh hang alone with the grade 8 most anoying girls.
XP oh her cake was deeaaad yummy [ i always eat her lunch :)) ] she had cramps so we didnt really talk much plus with the weather i just want to sleep. meet muhim and abdulaziz at the hallway while we were trying to find a place to hang they were talking bot the party theyre planning for me and shaheed. gaawd guys if u wan to plan it dont do it infrnt of me. pretending not to hearing anything i just made a distant. OH. I FOUND A HOT SPOT FOR ME. and im in love with it. :pp the gaps between lockers. i can fit there easily cause i was small. i scared alot of people which was hilarious. people actually stopped. people thought that anoosh were talking to the lockers like some crazy person but dundumdun she was talking to me who was in between the lockers hiding. it was funny to see people reactioon. it was fun. then i got the card back and the game frm abdulaziz and me and anoosh signed it while we rather some crowds out of now where. anoosh wanted to wrap shaheeds "suprise" gift so badly that we actually took some toilet papers and wraapped it. IT WAS FUNNY!! we were laughing our head off. it was so ghetto. then we "steal" some white papers ad deco or draw it. i planned to give it to him after the computer class(oh i foudn the class hilarious with the present.and other stuffs where anoosh scared me so badly that i dont wan to mention it anymore. im still in shocked now dont ask) and gave it to him. shaheeed got all over abdulaziz for the game and kept thanking us. funny guy. during that time a bigraphy tchr was having an asthma attck that he coouldnt breathe adn the other tchrs were worried so badly. it was okay then, thanks god. english class bored. stressed until the tchr were talking bot the girl things which i forgot wat he said. but when he said that me and anoosh stopped our work jus like that and look at him i was like " ouch u make it sound so offensive" before i said that he laughed he knew we were going to commetn on sumtin. you yak alot on him telling him things. it was fun actually.its fun to debate with him. he left class early cause he had sumtin to do. tchr shukri took over. IMISSTHATTCHR. she called me out and said that she heard i was leaving and i said yes and all.( 3 more days in school) then later if i forgot wat happen.

shaheed celebration and eat this ice cream log thing omgay YUMMY.
oh a quote from shaheed i loved today: "oh it the typical father figure baba" sarcasticlly. the way how he said it. was hilarious.


MAYA DEAR: im talking bot ridhwan.his bulletin at friendster about the featured friends.

KAK ANI: awwwe i feel so touched that u dreamt bot me. IMYtoo. no worries we'll hang out soon.

ABDULAZIZ: dudeee. ur last paragraph of ur post. gawwwd. dont say it that way. come oon. its nt like we're just going to ignore u jus like that. we'lll still remember you,

im going to miss the teachers here.
and i really mean it.
theyre just....






:]]
many things happen today

SHAZA'S DESCRIPTION OF TODAY: YELLOW MINDED RAINBOW COLORED.

omgaaay[spammed diyana. okaays eh? SDWD rights ] i swear it was coloring obviously can see. raawwwr. its the back table thing. anoosh was yellow minded she brought up all this _cough bed thing with another gender sort of _cough thing something like that. it was disgustiing! then all the wrong stuff came out. every wrong thing. tsk2 i came to school finding the classroom door closed. shaheed wasnt with me cause he ran away from me and entered the gents to escape for the chase.

pathetic i know. so i opened the door finding no girls all boys looking. surprisingly shocking i ran to the ladies. pathetic i know. in the ladies there was a debate about plucking eyebrowns. =.= yea the ladies is now the call "the office". it was boriing to see them talking tho i was part of it. so i went back to class and jus sit and talk. me and anoosh has the most boring fight in the century. she gave up and insist of talking. i didnt like it either cause asha wasnt there to help either of us out to make it intersting. computer class was full of story and YELLOW STUFFING. bleeeh. i kept asking her wts wrong with her but she just laugh and said i dont know. well if u cant beat them join them. haha. it was so funny. islamic studies had a quiz. one word. EASY. we were suppose to have a test but got postponed and yeaa more talking dirty things and jokes around about stuffs. lunch was a draaag. felt guilty for sereens team. i was hoping them to win then agaiin i feel guilty. math was i-really-have-to-focus-or-else. but i was okaay. more pactice much easier. but it was funny tho. we had to do our assignment 20 times. thaanks alot to the carols. =.=

math tchr: OH! shazaa i dotnt care where u are u have to do 20 times okay?
shazaa : whaat? oh sure no problm ill put it in the envelope and send it to you. ;]]
math tchr: okay good.(smile)

dundumdun.
i am going to do it so.
i like the math tchr
he rawk.

there was a fight in the class the most funny fight.
THE STORY:
this guy found that his jacket was in the trash can he attck some innocent dude then jump on him (sort of) then 3 guys came from no where and pull him with full drama. it was hypertatically HILARIOUS AND FULL OF DRAMA. [ this school has more drama then any other schools or public school. its such a worst :P] during this part i kept looking at wither khalid and ilyas. ilyas was being this good guy trying to sort things out between the 2 dudes fighting. he was like being a dad figure (hahahahhahahahahhahahahhahahahhaha) while khalid were all of the sudden serious goofing around poking people. tragiic. haha. natiive was okaaays. the storytelling. and yeaa. talking to abdulaziz bot shaheed surprise present from us. funny guy i must say. weiiird person.

i read mayas blog. wan's bulletin crack me up so badly that it made me smile so hard.
_cough no comment _cough.
i wanted to say sumtin but i forgot.
luckiies maya.
theen agaiin poor wan.
i feel sorry for wan. trying to make maya feel guilty. :]]

then rusda's word made me want to cry so much and smile more softer.
ILYsomuchies. gawwwd i miss u tons too. aah la. lame seyy tk bobaal. any depress losers chasing after u anymore tk? riindu ar bobal pasal desperates rejects.

oh.
i have decided NO MORE LYING although if im about to die cause in trble i shundt lie.
random right? it came from no where. well i have beeen doing some thinnking so yeaa.
its not that i lied to peple but i just wanted to make a step to become a good muslim.
XP
well its the talk sister amina gave the girl thats whyy.



TODAY WAS OUT LOUD. RAWKING MUCCHMORES.
loves it.




i have 4 more last school days.
thenn winter breck and i cant see my high school friends no more.

im going to miss:
back table

• annoosh
• asha
• the tchrs
• huda
• juwairiyah
• ayan
• aisha
• leyla
• abdulaziz
• the people arounds
• the drama
• maybe the guys weird immature attitude
• OH!
• dana
• nouran
• the abraar school.
• THE WHOOLE THING.

these all above change me alot. made me know stuff to make myself better.

today, i changed my schoolbag :]] i know ehk. whats the point i change my back.
random la you shaza. biase la. shaza kan the weird one while diyana the sofisticate one,
together we're the WDSD. dumdumdum. okay crapness attack. sorry readers.

today.
went to school feeling weiird. the school was like dead. the grade 9 class was like a prison cell.
why? cause the principal is watching our class treeneet. only my class know wat happen
bleeeh. ITS ALL THE GUYS(as in: boys only) FAULT. so school sarted so quiet. people came to me and attack me with all this question. "are you leaving? when? yak yak yak." im happy to leave okays. sorry but illmissyougguys. after then lunch hung out with asha andn anoosh.
no debate club cause most of the members have their basketball tournament. then i gt all hyper and lively there. GYM CLASS WAS AWESOME. it was floor hockey! woooooots~. the game was awesome. i rawk. dumdumdum. i was said im quick. how touching. well why? its cause im small people plus im into floor hockey, decendants from my mom and aunt i guess. its in the genes. well i scored 2 good shots. so thrilled. there were like dancing when i scored. haha hilarious i must say. then i slack half game,so tired. well my team best players _cough :]] all slack so end up we lost the game by one.haha. french class was the BOMMB.bang bang doks.incident that KEBOOBOOM. in your face anoosh.

french tchr: okays class give this paper to you parents okay. its for your parents not you.
its the parent tchr confrence.(as he aproched our table)
anoosh : oh brother, i dont need to give it to my parent right. they dont need to come right
cause im your favorite student riight.
french tchr: no. your not my favoirute student :]
anoosh : brother, you alway say that but you know that im your favorite student.blablabla
(i forgot wat she said)
french tchr: listen, from this table amoung all of you. shazaa's my favoirute.
me : AHAHAHAHAHA. diss onn your face. see im his favorite so shut up.
anoosh : brother your jus saying that! (dyning it)
me : shut up. he said it already. ha.
anoosh : _shut down. watever. hes just saying it.
me : yeaaah. sure.
french tchr: (smiled.)

hahahahhahahhahahahhahahahhahahah.
dumdumdum.
did my french test,omgaay. hard. im studying next time. =.=
french is getting herder then i expect.
hmm.
so then did it and all.
oh got a ride from someonne home.
and now at home.

;]]




ILOVESITTINGATTHEHALLWAY;hearts

psst to that person:
just dont la. theres no point
okays?

oh i realized something.
TIPS FOR MYSELF: never express feeling to my blog why? cause it makes me feel weird and un me thats scarry.

sorry for the late posts. :]] maaf zahir batiin.

Monday&Tuesday are SNOW IN DAY. well actually it was only on monday, for other school but not my school. I CUT SCHOOL FOR 2 DAYS. weeewt~~ i rawk. tneeeet. so those two whole days were laptop all the way. the snow is thick. higher.colder.dad said that this is one of the coldest winter after 10 yeras sumtin like that.

on Wednesday, i felt different. it was so cool though. i was somehow quiet that day as i dont get it whats really going on. then after lunch it was SUPER HYPER RAWKING. i was the same SHR on thursday and friday that our table were laughing our arse off. well of course the others helped out with the laughing till we all cried. i got closer with asha which got me closer to anoosh with no fights and hatings. :]] friday's joke was the more crap crap joke the whole day. asha has a baby cause she didnt took her birth control pill then she slept with anoosh's boyfren and all then there was a bet and all. funny. iadorethesehalfsisterslosersofmine.


THURSDAY:
something personal happen when i reliase i might have family prblms. but i dont nw. i realized how caring my siblings are although we hate each other so much. that a lesson taugh thanks to me although aku yg kene. sheesh. i jus think that mom treat me like im still 12 when im not. i dont feel all grown up. all this thing makes me feel like that i am 12. tsk.

seriously have u guys ever see me sad? if im sad im not that sad. nobody knows when im mad or sad. if i have a prblm i cant really go to anyone. i realized that im a hard-to-express person.
somehow i usually go to syimir to express it. sorrysisters. but not fully tell him everything. {boys are much more trustworthy than girls agree with me cause its right}
i dont know wat else to saay. OH. how many people know when im sad or angry?

eh i realized diyana sophisticated la. since when she grew up?
i almost forgot.
REPORT CARD RESULT ARE IN.

English: 93
Canadian Geography: 81
Science: 85
Native Studies: 92
Physical Education: 89
Principles of maths: 92
French: 87
Computers: 96
Islamic Studies: 95
STUDENT AVERAGE: 90

:]]
kak anii had a very funny story. u shud text msg the lady BACK SEYY.
i got so many funny stories these weeks. so much laughinngs.
ilikeit.

I CUT SCHOOL TODAY AGAIIN. annd all of my siblings did too. :]]

todaay, i didnt go to school. cos i had to baby sit the shazrah and shaheed just had the plan not to go to school. so in the morning, internet. talked to so many ppl. i miss them all. kak ani so eh eh kte hang out together soon. :]] then mama called and told me to help tchr anisa(gr8 eng tchr) help her with her markings. so i did. i rush and get ready and dash to school while shaheed babysat shazrah. lucky i brought my mp3 with me. while marking i was listening to it la. style la kate kn. talked to brother mustapha and the girls and then rush home cos shaheed had to pray his jumaah prayers riight. so then later internet, tv then when back to school cos of halaqah going on. omg. i love you girls. we were rawking cool people seyy. first we talk about islam and all. then we chatted along laughed. i got gathered around talk and laugh we were like imagining being super cool and all. then later we played this game. ha my team ruled. ;P soon we chat again eat talk laughed our heads off and all. it was fun. met a new people. well we meet randomly like always int he bu annd all but we never like talk or know each other until now. then played basketball. i wanted to go back home when i found shaheed left without me. >;o so i asked nouran if i could get a ride cos it was really cold and windy and dark. thanks to her dad. then now at home.

had an argument with mama.
dont wan to go in detail but jus to say im 14 and in 7 month in 15.
but maybe in the benefit maybe we should sit and discuss.

i have to strt reading more and less on the internet seyy.
mate pon da makin rosak.
=.=


somehow 3 more weeks.

well, in the morning, i tried to avoid her. somehow the more i avoid her, the more thingys ahppen. the better things happen. today was quite rawking fun, hilarious much, xpecially during eng class last period. the class was OUT OF CONTROL! and it was the worst of the time. it was like a nightmare for the tchrs. make it short. i dont want to alk much.
okay incident,

me:" sister, i have to go to the washroom badly"
SUB:" no u can go!"
me:" but i cant hold it anymore.do u wan me to die"
SUB:"yes."

SHOCKED! everyone hates her. pfft.even the good students. BLEEEH. no homework tonight. so preety relaxing and chilling. i strt randomly add ppl bcos asha was super boring! then talked to sharif. weird ass dude. and anoosh and maii. i miss that little person.
then like that2

gaaawd, im tired talking about you.
and the other you!. WTH is wrong with you.
CRAAP!






this week is the bad hijab week.

OKAAAY. i hate you. and im staying away from you. maybe he is right. you are a bad influence.
i have a bad day. today is stupid. YES. wtvr. thanks syimir for helping me out and hearing everything. and zahra for jus being there and making me smile.

syimir says: can you like smile alittle syimir says: think positive... be jolly happy... youre comin back to singapore soon.. dun think so much abt ur problem syimir says: and think abt whatever you wanna say, do, etc. with ur girlfriends back in singapore... its in afew weeks time.. 09. rocking live. says: thanks syimir i feel much better than/ syimir says: you shld be jumping for joy not upset right..



'i miss the sisters.
i wan the hug from mai,
the pat from skin
a rub at the back frm hasanah.
and the company of ain.

i want u guys badly.
;[[

talked to ain,haris,maya and farah(amalina) yesterday night. ain, boring ar bobal gan ko. ;P haris, pegi training ker tk?u and ur skateboarding je eh. tsk3 maya: why r u asking asal tk tdo lg?XP and pemalas ar ko. FARAAAH: sorry tk bobal sgt. stomach ache. ;D
thenn agaaiin. YOU PPL RULES.

well the schedule got changed again. i told my story and the tchr said " wow a wonderful story" well technically not good enough for me. RAWWR. well im hunger for great marks okay.i cant help it.then the whole day was so surprisingly random. its like POP GOES THE RANDOM. funny tho. lunch had debate meeting. and these grade 11 girls specifically huda and juwayriyah, we like chasing me around the class. first juwayriyah kept saying "awww, look at you. your so cute". its not funny. it was creepy. scaaaaaaary.thenn huda wanted to comfort me so she goes to me and hugs me and all of the sudden was like " mmm, you smell niice. Come here" THATS EVEN SCARIER. and she kept telling ppl to smell me. WTHECKS why are u smelling me.there were like all over me. but i still love them.gym was free-you-can-do-anything. shot some baaskets. goal some nets and the reast of the girls strt dancing. omg i can go blind. this is no ordinary dances.these were blind dances. asha was on the stage jus sitting and lying to joined her and then we went upstairs and took our french books while we heard this 2 tchrs talking about birds. riights.then studied.
THE FRENCH TCHR RAWK TODAY! he was so random and funny all of the sudden. (hint: 9 ppl gone cos the guys went to watch basket ball while one got home early and the others were absent.) the class were all rawking. the girls ruled the class. then my hyperness got built up cos of him and asha too. i was like HAHAHAHAHAH most of the time. walked home with ibraheem,emran,aisyah and lil brother. emran is akwrd and sory ibraheem i didnt talk to you but thanks for accompanying lil brother. did homework,eat.(i wan more food)thast it.


muhim thanks alot.
im using alot of "physical warfare" these days.
i jus love the word(s) ;]]

the pic say it all.